Shitty Day.....
Well I can already tell its gonna be a bad day. The gray sky matches my dismal mood and man is the sky beautiful. Nate and I got in a fight earlier this morning. Yeah how convenient how he can never remember anything he tells me and then he’ll turn around and accuse me of lying. It was not a big deal really. Last night I asked him what time he had class and if he was gonna pick me up, he gave me the time and said yes. Then this morning he asks how I’m getting home and I told him I thought he was going to based on our previous conversation. Then he starts arguing and pretty much subtly accuses me of lying or “being mistaken” as he put it. You know its really pathetic when you’re happy because for -ONE WHOLE WEEK-you didn’t get in an argument. Yes….its sad…..its really pathetic is what it is. Maybe my mom is right. Maybe I don’t need to be in a relationship. Maybe my two best friends are right too, I need to be with someone who really does appreciate me for me. He talks down to me so much its disgusting. There was a point where he was constantly calling me or anything I said “fuckin stupid.” It took him a while to rid himself of that habit. I mean its like he wants me to put up with his shit like all his other ex-girlfriends. I really don’t fuckin think so. My new thing is if it doesn’t matter in a week, then forget it. This however is an ongoing problem and I’m sick of it. I told him I was gonna get a tape recorder to record our conversations so that I could show him that I’m lying or that I’m not mistaken. What sucks is earlier today he asked me for some money and in the heat of our argument I forgot to give it to him. Why do I feel bad? I know he wouldn’t care or even feel bad if it was me. *sighs* FUCK IT!!