I hate to throw it out there but I got what I wanted
so it's been a while
things are okay I guess
This weekend I fell hard for a boy. I'm not getting my hopes up though because that will get me hurt. I'll get to see him tommorrow which is good. I am pretty excited about that. He is also coming back here this weekend which excites me a lot too. The App vs. Western game is this weekend. It is the biggest game of our football teams season. Both schools crowd the stadium and cheer on their teams. This game is especially monumental because it is the last time our schools will play each other for atleast three years. CRAZY. I'm kind of excited because I didn't go last year.
Oh another part of this weekend was quite weird. Only one person knows about it and she'll eventually be able to tell me everything about it and help me understand why it happened. I didn't even tell my mom because I know she would have freaked out and I 'm not ready for that. In fact I am not ready for much of anything anymore. I'm just glad that I have found someone that likes me for me. In fact I'm just glad to be happy.
At the same time I feel so happy I don't. I miss sarah a lot. Everytime I talk to her things are different. I think we had an amazing weekend/week together while she was here but things just change so much now. I wish I knew what to do. I know she feels like I'm leaving her out of stuff and I do think that I can see how she feels that way. I'm out of important information though. I really am. I have no more stories and now I'm even loosing my ability to give out advice. I have so much going on and I feel like things are weird between us because I don't give her the attention she deserves. I'm sorry boo.
In other things I am pretty okay with my roommate now. I think that because we are both pretty much happy we get along a lot better. I don't know why I was such a bitter bitch. BUT I was. She doesn't know how much animosity I harbored towards her but I did. I'm kind of letting it go though.
At times I am beginning to feel like I want to be alone and things would be okay. If I was alone I wouldn't have to worry about boys, telling people everything, participating in stuff, remembering, or being nice. Then again I need my friends. They are the only ones who pick me up when I fall. Screw boyfriends and crap like that all I need is them.
Also... tommorrow I'm going to see Cartel/New found glory/ Hit the lights/ The Early November. I wasn't planning on going but my roommate bought me the ticket to ensure that I would come and how can I say no to that. I can't wait because I want to see New Found Glory and Cartel. I'm sooo excited. A lot of things are changing lately. I hope I can keep up. Cause damn if I ain't growing up now.
things are okay I guess
This weekend I fell hard for a boy. I'm not getting my hopes up though because that will get me hurt. I'll get to see him tommorrow which is good. I am pretty excited about that. He is also coming back here this weekend which excites me a lot too. The App vs. Western game is this weekend. It is the biggest game of our football teams season. Both schools crowd the stadium and cheer on their teams. This game is especially monumental because it is the last time our schools will play each other for atleast three years. CRAZY. I'm kind of excited because I didn't go last year.
Oh another part of this weekend was quite weird. Only one person knows about it and she'll eventually be able to tell me everything about it and help me understand why it happened. I didn't even tell my mom because I know she would have freaked out and I 'm not ready for that. In fact I am not ready for much of anything anymore. I'm just glad that I have found someone that likes me for me. In fact I'm just glad to be happy.
At the same time I feel so happy I don't. I miss sarah a lot. Everytime I talk to her things are different. I think we had an amazing weekend/week together while she was here but things just change so much now. I wish I knew what to do. I know she feels like I'm leaving her out of stuff and I do think that I can see how she feels that way. I'm out of important information though. I really am. I have no more stories and now I'm even loosing my ability to give out advice. I have so much going on and I feel like things are weird between us because I don't give her the attention she deserves. I'm sorry boo.
In other things I am pretty okay with my roommate now. I think that because we are both pretty much happy we get along a lot better. I don't know why I was such a bitter bitch. BUT I was. She doesn't know how much animosity I harbored towards her but I did. I'm kind of letting it go though.
At times I am beginning to feel like I want to be alone and things would be okay. If I was alone I wouldn't have to worry about boys, telling people everything, participating in stuff, remembering, or being nice. Then again I need my friends. They are the only ones who pick me up when I fall. Screw boyfriends and crap like that all I need is them.
Also... tommorrow I'm going to see Cartel/New found glory/ Hit the lights/ The Early November. I wasn't planning on going but my roommate bought me the ticket to ensure that I would come and how can I say no to that. I can't wait because I want to see New Found Glory and Cartel. I'm sooo excited. A lot of things are changing lately. I hope I can keep up. Cause damn if I ain't growing up now.