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If I had a role model, maybe they could tell me how I should feel. Cant connect. I feel like I'm being dulled down. Calloused. I feel how I used to feel. Maybe I should drink some coffee, get my head straight, write it all out. Maybe I should go swimming. I cant sleep, I cant even imagine sleeping. I'm haunted. I ask for too much and give too little.
Eventually I hope to never even remember feeling like this. To look back at young adulthood and only remember the parties, the laughter, the love.
But nights like tonight, where I think I may be undiagnosed bipolar and am starved so starved for something.. I want this feeling to be swept away. I want this to change.
Eventually I hope to never even remember feeling like this. To look back at young adulthood and only remember the parties, the laughter, the love.
But nights like tonight, where I think I may be undiagnosed bipolar and am starved so starved for something.. I want this feeling to be swept away. I want this to change.