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I'm feeling much better today.
I got up early enough and worked on my list of goals for WIN. As it turns on, my meeting was canceled (Ash is still at the hospital with her grandfather). While I was at the school, I picked up a couple of books to help me write the short essay for my exchange application. I'm confident I will have it finished in good time tonight and that I will be able to drop it off on my way to the WIN office tomorrow.
Oh, my cystic acne has finally started to subside. What a gross thing to say. Regardless, my skin is clearing up nicely once more. That was a huge boost to my ego. I finally feel like I'm not monstrous again.
Charles told me to treat our relationship like an open relationship, essentially. I was certainly looking around today. Even though I'm quite taken with Charles, I'm frustrated about the lack of a physical aspect.
By that, I do not mean sex per se. Just... someone I could cuddle with, for instance. Or go places with. I'm so sick of being huddled up in front of my computer.
I'm also really curious as to how attractive I really am. I think Charles gets a skewed perception. I suspect I am perhaps a very attractive man, but I can't really tell. I often feel quite ugly, but I nevertheless realize that I spend a lot of time on my appearance. I dress very well, I spend time on my hair, I have good bone structure...
I want to see who I could attract.
I rather like this set up, actually. He said he doesn't care much for open relationships-- he's done it before. This is, of course, a different circumstance, with us being in different provinces and all.
Nevertheless, I am rather enjoying the notion of it. I don't know how much I would like it in practice. But... I think I will see how it plays out.
- T.
I got up early enough and worked on my list of goals for WIN. As it turns on, my meeting was canceled (Ash is still at the hospital with her grandfather). While I was at the school, I picked up a couple of books to help me write the short essay for my exchange application. I'm confident I will have it finished in good time tonight and that I will be able to drop it off on my way to the WIN office tomorrow.
Oh, my cystic acne has finally started to subside. What a gross thing to say. Regardless, my skin is clearing up nicely once more. That was a huge boost to my ego. I finally feel like I'm not monstrous again.
Charles told me to treat our relationship like an open relationship, essentially. I was certainly looking around today. Even though I'm quite taken with Charles, I'm frustrated about the lack of a physical aspect.
By that, I do not mean sex per se. Just... someone I could cuddle with, for instance. Or go places with. I'm so sick of being huddled up in front of my computer.
I'm also really curious as to how attractive I really am. I think Charles gets a skewed perception. I suspect I am perhaps a very attractive man, but I can't really tell. I often feel quite ugly, but I nevertheless realize that I spend a lot of time on my appearance. I dress very well, I spend time on my hair, I have good bone structure...
I want to see who I could attract.
I rather like this set up, actually. He said he doesn't care much for open relationships-- he's done it before. This is, of course, a different circumstance, with us being in different provinces and all.
Nevertheless, I am rather enjoying the notion of it. I don't know how much I would like it in practice. But... I think I will see how it plays out.
- T.