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I've been awake for more more than 24 hours now...well actually with two and a half hours of sleep that's still keeping my sanity intact until now. Too bad I don't have my own computer at home so I'm writing this down here at the office, facing Ayala Avenue..With only less than an inch of glass preventing me from jumping off the 16th floor. I'm not sad by the way. Only tired. Actually very tired that lethargy has caused my brain cells to cease from functioning. Amazingly my feelings are still very much known to me. I don know if emotions are like battery to your soul. Maybe it fuels the soul when every energy in your body has already been exhausted. I can't really explain..Even my thoughts..they're now incoherent but nonetheless i can still feel. My gosh what then is my point?
I have to be more concrete..Let me think..No, let me feel..Maybe I'm really getting old now.Hopefully getting mature as well.I am busy and productive but I'm afraid that all my efforts are not really worth investing. I fear losing in the end so much that i can't even start imagining what I'll become __ years from now. But at least I keep on fighting. I've always believed that I am strong. I just need more courage.
Only I myself can understand what I just wrote.