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harsh contrasting emotions at the moment. reoccurances from the past, confrontation of current situation. i feel sick. my head is spinning. i actually think i'm going to be sick. do you ever get that feeling where you just don't know what you're doing, what the hell you're doing, why the hell you are just messing around and not grasping an oppurtunity that is staring you right in the face. enjoy it you stupid girl. i need to lie down. fuck.