ive got a store bought kind of way of saying im okay.
well major suck, cos i wrote out a whole entry and then my computer froze. so here i am. tackling a rewrite. so here we go.
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i had a great night. met up with colin and then we picked up gavin and went to andrews, we had a really funny viewing and commentary of the CROW....and then we left cos colin had to get up early for the oregonian. and as we step outside...we notice that its snowed......and how....lots and lots of snow.....and of course, us 3 being boys, we decided that CERTAINLY our oldschool mercedes can make down the hills and past ledges and cliffs and twists....needless to say we almost died numerous times. and gav and i had to get out and push alot and we almost slid off this super high cliff, and we basically slid down the middle of the road without brakes all the way to sea level....lots of fun and super exciting. woohoo! so yea.
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oh yea, its my birthday right now. so yea, here i am on my birthday. im 20 now. greeaaat. i dunno what im gonna do tonight. hopefully something fun. although few people will remember it probably. colin remembered, nathan remembered, jen remembered. allyn sent me a really cute ecard, with the subtext of wanting to have sex with me. okay, maybe i made thats just me reading into it. hoho. im so funny.
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let me just say that being at home has made me so grateful and appreciative of my family life and how healthy it is, and how i had such a wonderful upbringing. all around me i see people struggling with troublesome family situations and i think that i really take my family life for granted. im really blessed with amazing parents who have given me amazing opportunities and have been amazingly supportive of me, even at their own expense. i need to realize that this kind of love isnt ordinary and usual, its extraordinary and beautiful.
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im tired, im leaving for bed soon..... tomorrow holds a day of waking up and eating and sitting around and enjoying my day of birth. how quaint.
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memory will rust and erode into lists of all that gave me. a blanket, some matches, this pain in my chest: the best parts of lonely.
"he'll see me as a person, and not just a black man"
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i had a great night. met up with colin and then we picked up gavin and went to andrews, we had a really funny viewing and commentary of the CROW....and then we left cos colin had to get up early for the oregonian. and as we step outside...we notice that its snowed......and how....lots and lots of snow.....and of course, us 3 being boys, we decided that CERTAINLY our oldschool mercedes can make down the hills and past ledges and cliffs and twists....needless to say we almost died numerous times. and gav and i had to get out and push alot and we almost slid off this super high cliff, and we basically slid down the middle of the road without brakes all the way to sea level....lots of fun and super exciting. woohoo! so yea.
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oh yea, its my birthday right now. so yea, here i am on my birthday. im 20 now. greeaaat. i dunno what im gonna do tonight. hopefully something fun. although few people will remember it probably. colin remembered, nathan remembered, jen remembered. allyn sent me a really cute ecard, with the subtext of wanting to have sex with me. okay, maybe i made thats just me reading into it. hoho. im so funny.
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let me just say that being at home has made me so grateful and appreciative of my family life and how healthy it is, and how i had such a wonderful upbringing. all around me i see people struggling with troublesome family situations and i think that i really take my family life for granted. im really blessed with amazing parents who have given me amazing opportunities and have been amazingly supportive of me, even at their own expense. i need to realize that this kind of love isnt ordinary and usual, its extraordinary and beautiful.
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im tired, im leaving for bed soon..... tomorrow holds a day of waking up and eating and sitting around and enjoying my day of birth. how quaint.
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memory will rust and erode into lists of all that gave me. a blanket, some matches, this pain in my chest: the best parts of lonely.
"he'll see me as a person, and not just a black man"