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this feeling is more of a constant than any of you ever have been. its unfortunate. i had it grasped so tightly and then it slipped and now everything is all fucked. maybe i subconciously really dont want to be happy... i dono that concept doesnt seem logical to me in all actuality. who knows though, really. im exhausted and bitter, but i have myself to thank for it in the end. im not sure how long i can keep treading in this stream of bullshit because it just seems to get thicker and thicker by second. im bound to drown at one point or another. any one of us would.