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I can't believe the nerve of some people. I try so hard to be nice and care.. It's kind of sad after you trust someone so much, and then you cut off ties with them... it makes me feel quite vulnerable because everything that they once cared about they now think is stupid and continue on to take advantage of this. Every time this happens it breaks me down a little more, but that's life. Relationships begin and end. One day you're best friends with someone, the next they're stepping all over everything that they once pretended to be interested in about your life. Everytime this happens i remember, i have friends who i've known for two years plus who totally care about me. And i neglect them for others, then come running back to find that i'm lucky enough to have them still there for me. Steve and I had a long conversation today on the phone about how fucked up some people are. The maturity level of some people is just pathetic. I hope that when i'm older, i act my age. I just have to keep reminding myself that these people don't know me, and the people who have known me for the longest still stick by me. Sometimes i just wish that i would have stayed friends with Nick and not gotten into that other clique. I had so much fun just hangin with him. No drama. Well we had our own little drama but it wasn't like, immature shit. But, since i am a bitch, i guess i deserve all this. Feel free to talk all the shit you want, i know who i am. The more people say about me , the more i can tell that they care about me. I'm not singling anyone out, this goes for a lot of people so don't feel special.
Anyway last night Mike and i watched my old baby videos and he laughed hard when i slid down the stairs on my stomach. i did that all the time so i didn't laugh. then we watched my dance videos and he laughed at how happy i was and my facial expressions. after that we drove to his house and then walked over to his friend Ben's house and Kevin was there and we all drank and had a grand old time! I was wrong about kevin, i just let others opinions of him pollute my head. Shame on me for doing that, because i usually don't let others influence me. Well anyway we wandered back to his house and yea. In the mornin we drove to target and i helped him apply. hopefully this works out! we said hi to sarah and then went to my house. my parents took us to el toro which was delish. then we fell asleep again, watched some tv, then ate burger king. very eventful day ay? And i found out that i'm a faber. That sucks, i never thought i acted like that.
here's some children of bodom lyrics that i find perfectly fitting for the moment..
Hey what's the matter with you,
what are you trying to do, I'm wrecking my brain
I'll never get it. Did i ever hurt you in any way?
if I did then hear my apology: FUCK YOU!
I'd give anything to batter you down,
all the way to 6 feet under
And why in earth should I stop until
I see your fucking ass drop
Mind your own business and leave mine alone,
take a look at the real world for a sec.
It's a hell for heroes and heaven for fools,
what makes you the luckiest bastard on the earth!
In the prejudiced mind narrow yourself in,
I'm the servant while you're the king.
Ohhhhhohh,
Til' tomorrow is a better day to be,
Ooohhohohoh,
You're better off dead than fucking with me.
Ohooohhoooh
What if there ain't no tomorrow...
Ohooohoho
Well let me tell you, there wasn't one today!
Anyway last night Mike and i watched my old baby videos and he laughed hard when i slid down the stairs on my stomach. i did that all the time so i didn't laugh. then we watched my dance videos and he laughed at how happy i was and my facial expressions. after that we drove to his house and then walked over to his friend Ben's house and Kevin was there and we all drank and had a grand old time! I was wrong about kevin, i just let others opinions of him pollute my head. Shame on me for doing that, because i usually don't let others influence me. Well anyway we wandered back to his house and yea. In the mornin we drove to target and i helped him apply. hopefully this works out! we said hi to sarah and then went to my house. my parents took us to el toro which was delish. then we fell asleep again, watched some tv, then ate burger king. very eventful day ay? And i found out that i'm a faber. That sucks, i never thought i acted like that.
here's some children of bodom lyrics that i find perfectly fitting for the moment..
Hey what's the matter with you,
what are you trying to do, I'm wrecking my brain
I'll never get it. Did i ever hurt you in any way?
if I did then hear my apology: FUCK YOU!
I'd give anything to batter you down,
all the way to 6 feet under
And why in earth should I stop until
I see your fucking ass drop
Mind your own business and leave mine alone,
take a look at the real world for a sec.
It's a hell for heroes and heaven for fools,
what makes you the luckiest bastard on the earth!
In the prejudiced mind narrow yourself in,
I'm the servant while you're the king.
Ohhhhhohh,
Til' tomorrow is a better day to be,
Ooohhohohoh,
You're better off dead than fucking with me.
Ohooohhoooh
What if there ain't no tomorrow...
Ohooohoho
Well let me tell you, there wasn't one today!