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Was reading my past entries back to the 1st one and it is so funny to see how much as changed since I started this journal (thinking yr, it's been 2) Here was my 1st entry and my update to it. :)
"Here I am with my very first post, now what? I shouyld be using this as a form to keep my writings, and I'm sure it will also keep my secrets, maybe.
OK I'm twenty-three years, married for 3 years, WoW, how did I make it this long, with 3 daughters, one who is all mine and two who are all mine just don't like to admit. Well actualluy they live with my husband and I full time. I am sure most would be nervous to let someone my age take care of kids that are like eleven and nine, and I wouldm't blame you, but as forme, I beleive, that I am doing 10 times better than their REAL mom, who I might add is a skanky flake.
That's a little about my at the moment life, and thats not all of me.
I will explain my complicated yet exciting life a little later.
Tamara"
UPDATE:OK, Some secrets were let out, affair's, pain & sorrow excitment, etc. Some of my writings did make it, but not nearly the amount that I would have and should have done. The skanky bio mom is at the moment moving back to CT from GA due to the Navy, ALTHOUGH.... one thing, we are actually really getting along as good friends so much to the point I actually smoked pot with her and felt safe about it. Wow, our relationship has changed so much in two years! Anyhow, my husband and I are still together and I still love him, it just seems to always be a different love now and I wish the other would come back.
I am about to turn 25 this Oct. (SCARY). Still mixed about my B-day as usual, never finding absolute content on that day. Something needs to change seriously in my life because I do not want to end up like LInda, my godmother who shot herself in the head at the beginning of this year. I am always scared that she did it, now I might end up doing it. But... I also have a huge support of people around me that are always going to try and look out for me. And I love them.
"Here I am with my very first post, now what? I shouyld be using this as a form to keep my writings, and I'm sure it will also keep my secrets, maybe.
OK I'm twenty-three years, married for 3 years, WoW, how did I make it this long, with 3 daughters, one who is all mine and two who are all mine just don't like to admit. Well actualluy they live with my husband and I full time. I am sure most would be nervous to let someone my age take care of kids that are like eleven and nine, and I wouldm't blame you, but as forme, I beleive, that I am doing 10 times better than their REAL mom, who I might add is a skanky flake.
That's a little about my at the moment life, and thats not all of me.
I will explain my complicated yet exciting life a little later.
Tamara"
UPDATE:OK, Some secrets were let out, affair's, pain & sorrow excitment, etc. Some of my writings did make it, but not nearly the amount that I would have and should have done. The skanky bio mom is at the moment moving back to CT from GA due to the Navy, ALTHOUGH.... one thing, we are actually really getting along as good friends so much to the point I actually smoked pot with her and felt safe about it. Wow, our relationship has changed so much in two years! Anyhow, my husband and I are still together and I still love him, it just seems to always be a different love now and I wish the other would come back.
I am about to turn 25 this Oct. (SCARY). Still mixed about my B-day as usual, never finding absolute content on that day. Something needs to change seriously in my life because I do not want to end up like LInda, my godmother who shot herself in the head at the beginning of this year. I am always scared that she did it, now I might end up doing it. But... I also have a huge support of people around me that are always going to try and look out for me. And I love them.