what a lovely holiday weekend
so this weekend was labor day and all i did was sit around and do nothing. it was great!! i drank, ate food, ans dat around and croched. lovely lovely lovely. but on a sad note, i did break up with dean. i told him that i need time to myself to think about life and what i want. he knows he means the world to me buti just need ti think about things. i'm not going to try to push him into something he cannt handle because thats not right. maybe months from now i will feel different but i wont know that until i take time to myself. i dont think i have been single since i was 14. thats really not healthy. i still love him and we'll talk somtimes, but we're not together. it hurt me alot. i was crying and he was crying but what can i do. i mean we have 2 and 1/2 years together and im not going to throw our friendship out the door. it just has to be this way for a while. other then that, the weekdn was great. hung out with monica and bob and lin and shawn and jossy. had big breakfast with denny and jimmy lee and mommy. grilled out lots of food too. omg, we had like 4 racks of ribs on sunday. it was unreal. i ate chicken of course. ok thats all for now. back to work i go.