and the plant thing...
...go to bed feeling better than this. beginning to understand, moments like these i dont have contol of anything. like im traveling in 40 different directions at the same time. i want to smash your face in dude. you know i absolutely would too.
personal weaknesses:
chance of public criticism/embarrassment
complicatedness with women & dumb emotions that dont make sense
lack of social adeptness/confidence --> lack of wit, cleverness.
in all of the above situations, in those moments, i can feel weak, helpless, incapable of anything, powerless to change, vulnerable to the slightest figurative blow and exposed.
in all of the above cases i feel like i dont have any control, over myself, the situation, the people, nor the outcome. which in turn limits my choices to feeling like just a clump of mass getting internally beat down.
this is bullshit.
i still wanna hulk smash your face. give you actual pain to kill. this is angry. yep. deal. i just dont fucking get it. time for some recon shit. maybe.
personal weaknesses:
chance of public criticism/embarrassment
complicatedness with women & dumb emotions that dont make sense
lack of social adeptness/confidence --> lack of wit, cleverness.
in all of the above situations, in those moments, i can feel weak, helpless, incapable of anything, powerless to change, vulnerable to the slightest figurative blow and exposed.
in all of the above cases i feel like i dont have any control, over myself, the situation, the people, nor the outcome. which in turn limits my choices to feeling like just a clump of mass getting internally beat down.
this is bullshit.
i still wanna hulk smash your face. give you actual pain to kill. this is angry. yep. deal. i just dont fucking get it. time for some recon shit. maybe.