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Isn't it funny that there are certain things a person consistantly turns to for comfort? One of my kids at work puts his fingers in his mouth. Another one has a blanket, and another has a puppy, another a monkey, so on and so forth. When I get uncomfortable, I get really quiet, and sort of look around awkwardly trying to figure out what I should do. I also have a tendency to move my feet or play with my necklace, if I'm wearing one, or touch my neck. That's all when I'm not within the familiar and safe walls of my room. When I'm in my room, I usually grab my teddy bear for a squeeze and I turn on music. But not just any music. I have a very specific band I turn to when I'm really feeling low and crying.
You all will most likely laugh, as this is one of the most hated upon bands I've ever seen. But for me, they've been my life line when things got tough. They've been a constant uplifter for...man, probably about 10 years give or take a few. I'm not even really sure what it is about them, but they help me calm down and keep me level so I can regain my footing and continue on. Hearing everyone hate on them does sort of suck, because they are so personal for me. When they fell apart I felt betrayed and hurt. It took me some time to come to terms with that. But, I've come to terms and I'm back to using them when I need support and to even out my emotions.
I'm giving up my theater major.
So I really need them right now. A night spent crying clued me in to that.
I could go on for days, but I won't. I'll just post this and know that I'll always have this music to fall back on when I feel my depression wrap it's bony thin fingers tightly around my spine while it clambers up my back in hopes of gaining a foothold in my mind. I'm not going to let it. I refuse to give in.
You all will most likely laugh, as this is one of the most hated upon bands I've ever seen. But for me, they've been my life line when things got tough. They've been a constant uplifter for...man, probably about 10 years give or take a few. I'm not even really sure what it is about them, but they help me calm down and keep me level so I can regain my footing and continue on. Hearing everyone hate on them does sort of suck, because they are so personal for me. When they fell apart I felt betrayed and hurt. It took me some time to come to terms with that. But, I've come to terms and I'm back to using them when I need support and to even out my emotions.
I'm giving up my theater major.
So I really need them right now. A night spent crying clued me in to that.
Click to viewI could go on for days, but I won't. I'll just post this and know that I'll always have this music to fall back on when I feel my depression wrap it's bony thin fingers tightly around my spine while it clambers up my back in hopes of gaining a foothold in my mind. I'm not going to let it. I refuse to give in.