i have no coherent words left.
my life, what is it
i think god is trolling me to become pious again
it's not working very well, because all it's doing is freaking me out and making me feel very, very pathetic
why, Lord, why? why have you forsaken me /SHOT ← i'm going to hell for that
so um. i'm half-convinced that tracy_loo_who is me in seven years. except more shameless. a lot more shameless.
it's kind of a funny story. only it makes me go OTL at the same time. my first foray into spn fandom was a couple of weeks ago (me going into fandoms is kind of a big deal. i usually only do it if said fandom ends up having a ship i adore to pieces. hence why even though i've been sort-of-following the show since the pilot, i did not get into the fandom until now simply because i do not adore wincest to pieces. i do not adore it at all, in fact. i do laugh at it now, though. but it was just plain squicky at first. -shuts up now-) and i saw her around all over the place. every time i saw someone commenting at a tracy i had a kneejerk reaction and went FML. (well, it was sort of amusing, to say the least, when i saw someone misspell her name as tracey. /sigh)
then today, i found out she's asian and a science-type. grad student in neuroengineering, actually.
i'm creeping myself out here, guys. FML FML FML FML
i kind of want to make myself known to her, just for the lulz, but i think it would end up being creepy amounts of awkward. because i am just that amazingly awkward.
now for the pathetic.
so um. school starts in two weeks from now. i've not started on any of my summer reading. my copy of the song of roland has gone missing, and i have yet to purchase a copy of the road. i've been looking for the song of roland on and off all day.
i'm about ready to beg for divine intervention. in the form of an our father, a hail mary, and asking st. anthony to pray for me.
i have not prayed like this since eighth grade.
seriously, my life, what is it. |:
i think god is trolling me to become pious again
it's not working very well, because all it's doing is freaking me out and making me feel very, very pathetic
why, Lord, why? why have you forsaken me /SHOT ← i'm going to hell for that
so um. i'm half-convinced that tracy_loo_who is me in seven years. except more shameless. a lot more shameless.
it's kind of a funny story. only it makes me go OTL at the same time. my first foray into spn fandom was a couple of weeks ago (me going into fandoms is kind of a big deal. i usually only do it if said fandom ends up having a ship i adore to pieces. hence why even though i've been sort-of-following the show since the pilot, i did not get into the fandom until now simply because i do not adore wincest to pieces. i do not adore it at all, in fact. i do laugh at it now, though. but it was just plain squicky at first. -shuts up now-) and i saw her around all over the place. every time i saw someone commenting at a tracy i had a kneejerk reaction and went FML. (well, it was sort of amusing, to say the least, when i saw someone misspell her name as tracey. /sigh)
then today, i found out she's asian and a science-type. grad student in neuroengineering, actually.
i'm creeping myself out here, guys. FML FML FML FML
i kind of want to make myself known to her, just for the lulz, but i think it would end up being creepy amounts of awkward. because i am just that amazingly awkward.
now for the pathetic.
so um. school starts in two weeks from now. i've not started on any of my summer reading. my copy of the song of roland has gone missing, and i have yet to purchase a copy of the road. i've been looking for the song of roland on and off all day.
i'm about ready to beg for divine intervention. in the form of an our father, a hail mary, and asking st. anthony to pray for me.
i have not prayed like this since eighth grade.
seriously, my life, what is it. |: