Please turn that fuckin' radio off.
Is it possible to love and hate someone at the same time? I mean, okay, Kristina. I care abot her more that I've probably ever told her, and I guess it's because I'm afraid (and almost positive that) she doesn't care about me as much, and I've backed out of telling her how much she means to me so many times just because I'm afraid of being told that. And lately, it doesn't matter what I do, I seem to piss her off. Today, she hasn't talekd to me since friday night because her phone's either off or she won't pick up. I go to gameforce because I need to talk to the manager about something and I tell her I'll call her back later, and she asks why can't i talk to her inside the store and i said okay, she tells me nevermind and she hangs up. It turns out that It took less than five minutes to talk to him. I go back out to my car and get my phone, and I call her back (while driving down Atlantic, which is super-dangerous) and she says shes kind of offended that i wouldnt talk to her inside, when i told her i would but she didnt want to. then she hangs up on me. I get home and get on aim and tell her that it's only slightly messed up that she shuns me for three days and gets mad when i leave for five minutes. she gets super-mad and blocks me. maybe she enjoys being mad at me? i dont know, but im too afraid to tell her how i feel and it drives me insane. i miss her, id go so far as to say that i still love her, and i just keep getting shit kicked in my face, and i think that im an idiot for not giving up. ive never resisted something like this for this long, and all i want is for everything to be okay... and i think im just fucking things up more.. well, off i go to drown my sorrow in... driving :l fun. and on top of that, i cant listen to much music because half of the songs i hear remind me of her.. *sigh*