Apr 04, 2008 10:32
Anna was practically frantic yesterday before I took her to the therapist. She admitted that she hardly slept a wink the night before, and had been sweating and nervous all day. By the time we left to head downtown she had worked herself into quite a state! Then we were a little late getting there, so I dropped her off while I went to find parking.
And after all that, wouldnt you know it, the therapist wasnt even there! Turns out he wrote down the wrong date... Anna waited outside the office for half an hour, then we went home.
Totally disappointing! I was so upset! After all the anxiety Anna had to go through, to have it all be for nothing... but it wasnt. Because as soon as we got home Anna wanted me to e-mail the therapist and re-schedule for next week. I think just seeing the office and making the trip has relaxed her a bit, and I honestly think next week will be a lot easier for her. Plus while she was waiting for the therapist she got a call from a close friend of hers who was really excited about the whole thing, and I think that got Anna more excited. She even made a post on her myspace about it!
I am relieved to see that her emotions surrounding this are not entirely negative. I feel like it justifies the pushes I have been giving her a bit. She pushes back, but once the fear is gone I can see that I really am helping her to do what she wants to do. She seemed happier last night than she has been in a while, and it gives me more hope than I have had in a while for our happiness.
-h