you know, I feel the same way...outofsynchJune 10 2008, 17:16:05 UTC
I do things that make me feel good, or that I think are fun. or things that I can consider "showing off". and when people notice, and comment, and give positive feedback on what I've done, or wear, I just want to crawl into a corner and hide. I loose all my confidence when I put on a skirt and make-up and dress "girly" b/c it's not a look I've developed confidence in. I feel like a fish out of water. exposed. I know that I look good, but I begin to doubt what others are seeing, or whether or not I want them to see me. I can dress provocitavely in paints though, with a tight jacket (haloween was a pin-stripe form fitted jacket and pants - no shirt) and feel completely in my element. for me at least, I think it's doing something new, something I was always afraid to do when I was younger. and that fear still lingers once I'm around other people. I've been told the only way to overcome fear is to experience it, until I get use to it. I'm thinking I should just start walking around my house in sexy dresses and make-up to get use to being in them, and get over feeling self-conscious. then maybe I could go out in public. who knows.:)
I loose all my confidence when I put on a skirt and make-up and dress "girly" b/c it's not a look I've developed confidence in. I feel like a fish out of water. exposed. I know that I look good, but I begin to doubt what others are seeing, or whether or not I want them to see me.
I can dress provocitavely in paints though, with a tight jacket (haloween was a pin-stripe form fitted jacket and pants - no shirt) and feel completely in my element.
for me at least, I think it's doing something new, something I was always afraid to do when I was younger. and that fear still lingers once I'm around other people.
I've been told the only way to overcome fear is to experience it, until I get use to it. I'm thinking I should just start walking around my house in sexy dresses and make-up to get use to being in them, and get over feeling self-conscious. then maybe I could go out in public. who knows.:)
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