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well, its 3am and i cannot sleep. i think maybe its because i have way too much shit on my mind. like for instance. Ryan O'Fallon. he has been on my mind for a while. then there is Ryan from over at jr's place. you ever get this feeling like you know something is going to happen between you and another person, but dont know exactly when or what. thats how i feel about ryan. and not o'fallon, the other one. i'm really kinda liking him. then the fact that coty and brandon have been brought up alot. which of course has me thinking about them. my trouble lately has been nothing but guys. i hate guys. actually i love them, but i hate the prediciments they put you in.
well enough about guys. i'm kinda pissed at myself for not going to school this semester. but flat out, i just dont have the money. i'm going in january, but i wanna go now. its kinda nice that i'm off for a semester, but while everyone else is in school, i'm either sitting at home, or working. i've gotten this feeling lately that i have been going down the wrong path. well at least thats what my parents have been telling me. i dont think i have except for the fact that i party all the fuckin time. which i can understand to why they think that. i mean its not like i'm going out and doing a bunch of drugs, but i have been drinking excessivly. i dont know, like i haven't really gone out at all this past week, just for the simple fact i didnt really want to. there is so much going on, but so little to say about it. its one of those things where you need to figure it out within yourself. and that sounds totally gay, but the truth. i basically just need to figure out what the fuck i'm doing with myself, get on the right path, and get my shit straightened out! anyway i'm gonna try and fall asleep, hopefully it works, and update lata.