dont read.

[prtyfly4awitegy]

i dont like who i have become.
im cold, im not understanding, i push people away.
i have no sense of humor, i pick fights, i have major mood swings
im always upset, even when i dont seem it.
i dont have fun anymore.
i dont get along with my family.
im horrible to my mom, who is a little crazy at times,
doesnt deserve what i give to her.
ive lost a lot of friends, whom dont even know it yet,
but they are gone. and i know it.
everyone evolved, grew up, moved on.
and im still sulking in the aura of last year.
im blunt.
i say things i dont mean. a lot. i just dont think about it.
i avoid the people i really want to talk to.
and i faintly remember. coming to school everyday
with a smile on my face. nothing could bring me down.
i was a ball of sunshine as some put it.
and now as soon as i get a smile back on my face,
i dont even know. srsly. dont even ask me.
and the people who should read this, will probly never know it exists.
im sorry. i dont even recognize myself anymore.
i have no idea what happened to me.
its my fault. i created the environment.
things just arent the way they used to be.
im not the way i used to be.

its just one of those days.