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This day was good.
This day was the first good day in a long while.
And everything about it was good from start to end.
I went to the doctor.
She's really nice.
I weigh 116 pounds and counting down. :)
Then I went out to lunch with my mom
Over burgers I said it was total bullshit raising me in the way of meekness and terror
And that I wasted my entire childhood being afraid
It's over now, we're almost grown ups do you realize?
And then I got my flip flops back from my exboyfriend. Now I never have to see him again. I can call him all I like but only to say sorry I don't know why I called. I kind of want him to think I'm pathetic? I don't want him to get me straight.
I went to Elaine's house to exchange christmas gifts and if you've been following along you know she's my favorite person on the planet
she gave me some girly clothes to wear and lip gloss
we talked and i feel so much respect for her, yknow, she's brilliant. and her paintings are incredible.
we shared a plate of yakisoba and went to see slumdog millionaire
half the reason I like Elaine is cause she wants some fucking butter on her popcorn and she chews loudly through the incredibly depressing parts
no wonder that movie won so many awards, i mean shit
then we found grant skateboarding alone at the park and ride
and took him back with us
we played rockband and made elaine sing byob (fucking adorable)
elaine's mom cut up a pineapple for us
and her whole family is just so different from anything normal
but in the best way
grant started a new job making pizza but he sliced his thumbs chopping onions
and elaine's mom has basically adopted him and she helped him bandage it because it was still bleeding after hours and hours
and just to watch her being a mother to him it's just so
it was a good day
I drove around streets I've never been down in this dead city
windows down and heat blasting at my feet
you can feel so fucking serene with so little you know?
life is easy here
life is good.
This day was the first good day in a long while.
And everything about it was good from start to end.
I went to the doctor.
She's really nice.
I weigh 116 pounds and counting down. :)
Then I went out to lunch with my mom
Over burgers I said it was total bullshit raising me in the way of meekness and terror
And that I wasted my entire childhood being afraid
It's over now, we're almost grown ups do you realize?
And then I got my flip flops back from my exboyfriend. Now I never have to see him again. I can call him all I like but only to say sorry I don't know why I called. I kind of want him to think I'm pathetic? I don't want him to get me straight.
I went to Elaine's house to exchange christmas gifts and if you've been following along you know she's my favorite person on the planet
she gave me some girly clothes to wear and lip gloss
we talked and i feel so much respect for her, yknow, she's brilliant. and her paintings are incredible.
we shared a plate of yakisoba and went to see slumdog millionaire
half the reason I like Elaine is cause she wants some fucking butter on her popcorn and she chews loudly through the incredibly depressing parts
no wonder that movie won so many awards, i mean shit
then we found grant skateboarding alone at the park and ride
and took him back with us
we played rockband and made elaine sing byob (fucking adorable)
elaine's mom cut up a pineapple for us
and her whole family is just so different from anything normal
but in the best way
grant started a new job making pizza but he sliced his thumbs chopping onions
and elaine's mom has basically adopted him and she helped him bandage it because it was still bleeding after hours and hours
and just to watch her being a mother to him it's just so
it was a good day
I drove around streets I've never been down in this dead city
windows down and heat blasting at my feet
you can feel so fucking serene with so little you know?
life is easy here
life is good.