i think im bipolar cuz this is ridiculous
Ok i'm about to vent, and its just gonna seem like one big long ramble but it needs to come out. Hardly no one reads this, so i'm gonna say what i've been holding in.
If any girl, JUNIOR girl, is going to talk shit about me, at least have the balls to act how you feel. Sittin and talkin shit about me then being a doll to my face isnt' gonna do shit. I SEE THROUGH YOU! You need to take your fake ass smile and your stupid kisses that your gonna blow at me, and put them up your ass. I dont want them cuz you are so pathetic it makes me sick. Stop beign such a fake ass bitch, i seriously am not falling for your little sweet voice or ur stupid shit. I know everyone thinks i'm one big airhead, but i'm smarter than i get credit for. I am sorry that you want SO badly to be like someone else, but try, just for once, to figure who you are first. Cuz honestly i dotn like who you've become. And you know what, i am sorry if you junior girls feel like i'm ditchin you for underclassmen, adn i really dotn care if you think i'm stupid for liking them, but guess what, they are so much more genuine and treat me how i deserve. I dont need ppl like you who will just make me feel like total shit time and time again. So guess what, i'm gonna be friends with the underclassmen cuz i want to and i really dont give a shit what you have to say about it. Secondly, why the hell does everyone feel the need to pair off. Is it really necessary to have one best friend taht you must leech onto at all times? Grow some self respect and be a person, not a half. Maybe i am the third wheel in every situation but at least i dont need another person to be complete. Thank God for what little dignity i have left. Its absolutely pathetic the way you ppl let someone else rule your world. No matter what any one says, you only have to do what YOU think you should do. Adding on to this, BOYS AREN'T EVERYTHING!!!!! in fact they hardly are anything. Yea its nice to have a boy around but note to everyone : BOYFRIENDS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE AN ADDITION TO YOUR LIFE, NOT YOUR LIFE! Think about it please. Everyone around me is lettin a boy change how they see everything and everyone else. Get a fuckin grip on reality. Again, there is more than that.
I am so fed up with everyone adn they're stupid games. I have become so worn out tryin to figure everyone elses lives out. Guess what? I REALLY AM TIRED OF IT!! I am beginning to get a pretty damn good idea of waht life shoudl be, but taht doesnt' mean i can do that for everyone else. I have apologized a million times before, but i am sorry i am not perfect. And no matter what any one says, EVERYONE around me walks around expecting me to be the perfect friend, daughter, student, person. And this just in, im not perfect. I am far from it, but that doesn't mean that i'm not doing the best I can. Just because i dont get the best grades in the world, just because i try new things and go out and have fun, just because i do things you dont agree with, just because i forgot to call when i said i would, DOESN"T MEAN I"M NOT TRYING!!!!!!!! If only people knew how much i pulled my hair out trying to be perfect! I know i sound like a fuckin ppl pleaser, but that is my biggest weakness. i let people run alllllll over me and take total and complete advantage of me. And now that i'm finally starting to grow some balls, suddenly i'm "not the type of person you would want in your life." BLOW ME BITCH. I'm sorry i am not a goody two shoes thats is best friends with my mom. THATS NOT ME!! And, to my parents, i am SORRY i am not katie or caitlin. I am not the 4.0, varsity basketball, dream student child you want. I know you woudl kill to have either one of them, but i'm sorry you are stuck with me, so deal.
Even through all this shit about how much I am failing everyone else, i happen to think I got a pretty good grip on what life is all about. And even if i'm not perfect, who gives a shit? Cuz last tiem i checked, NO ONE is perfect. SO PLEASE stop expecting me to be.
AND PS if your not gonna treat me the way you tell me to treat you, you wont get shit from me. Think about it, you would be the biggest hypocrit alive.
If any girl, JUNIOR girl, is going to talk shit about me, at least have the balls to act how you feel. Sittin and talkin shit about me then being a doll to my face isnt' gonna do shit. I SEE THROUGH YOU! You need to take your fake ass smile and your stupid kisses that your gonna blow at me, and put them up your ass. I dont want them cuz you are so pathetic it makes me sick. Stop beign such a fake ass bitch, i seriously am not falling for your little sweet voice or ur stupid shit. I know everyone thinks i'm one big airhead, but i'm smarter than i get credit for. I am sorry that you want SO badly to be like someone else, but try, just for once, to figure who you are first. Cuz honestly i dotn like who you've become. And you know what, i am sorry if you junior girls feel like i'm ditchin you for underclassmen, adn i really dotn care if you think i'm stupid for liking them, but guess what, they are so much more genuine and treat me how i deserve. I dont need ppl like you who will just make me feel like total shit time and time again. So guess what, i'm gonna be friends with the underclassmen cuz i want to and i really dont give a shit what you have to say about it. Secondly, why the hell does everyone feel the need to pair off. Is it really necessary to have one best friend taht you must leech onto at all times? Grow some self respect and be a person, not a half. Maybe i am the third wheel in every situation but at least i dont need another person to be complete. Thank God for what little dignity i have left. Its absolutely pathetic the way you ppl let someone else rule your world. No matter what any one says, you only have to do what YOU think you should do. Adding on to this, BOYS AREN'T EVERYTHING!!!!! in fact they hardly are anything. Yea its nice to have a boy around but note to everyone : BOYFRIENDS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE AN ADDITION TO YOUR LIFE, NOT YOUR LIFE! Think about it please. Everyone around me is lettin a boy change how they see everything and everyone else. Get a fuckin grip on reality. Again, there is more than that.
I am so fed up with everyone adn they're stupid games. I have become so worn out tryin to figure everyone elses lives out. Guess what? I REALLY AM TIRED OF IT!! I am beginning to get a pretty damn good idea of waht life shoudl be, but taht doesnt' mean i can do that for everyone else. I have apologized a million times before, but i am sorry i am not perfect. And no matter what any one says, EVERYONE around me walks around expecting me to be the perfect friend, daughter, student, person. And this just in, im not perfect. I am far from it, but that doesn't mean that i'm not doing the best I can. Just because i dont get the best grades in the world, just because i try new things and go out and have fun, just because i do things you dont agree with, just because i forgot to call when i said i would, DOESN"T MEAN I"M NOT TRYING!!!!!!!! If only people knew how much i pulled my hair out trying to be perfect! I know i sound like a fuckin ppl pleaser, but that is my biggest weakness. i let people run alllllll over me and take total and complete advantage of me. And now that i'm finally starting to grow some balls, suddenly i'm "not the type of person you would want in your life." BLOW ME BITCH. I'm sorry i am not a goody two shoes thats is best friends with my mom. THATS NOT ME!! And, to my parents, i am SORRY i am not katie or caitlin. I am not the 4.0, varsity basketball, dream student child you want. I know you woudl kill to have either one of them, but i'm sorry you are stuck with me, so deal.
Even through all this shit about how much I am failing everyone else, i happen to think I got a pretty good grip on what life is all about. And even if i'm not perfect, who gives a shit? Cuz last tiem i checked, NO ONE is perfect. SO PLEASE stop expecting me to be.
AND PS if your not gonna treat me the way you tell me to treat you, you wont get shit from me. Think about it, you would be the biggest hypocrit alive.