hmm...
well this is weird.
i havent used livejournal in almost 4 months i think.
i dont know what i am going to write or why i am even writing anything.
i have nothing to say.
maybe something will come to me...
nothing is really new.
well actually, i guess since the last time i have written there have been changes.
i have been with Nick Fleming for about 3 and a half months now and i love him very much.
i hang out with him everyday and i have yet to be mad at him or even really annoyed.
i should hang out with my other friends more
but i dont.
i dont know why i dont but i dont.
i wish that a certain friend of mine wouldn't take it too personal, though.
i still love her but it will never go back to how it used to be when i was at her house every single day.
we did absolutley everything together and i miss that but
i don't know.
she thinks im ditching her for Nick and im sure it seems that way.
i would be upset if it was reversed too im sure
she is a wonderful person, funny, beautiful... etc.
i wish she had a Nick.
and i know she does, too.
she would understand more of why things are the way they are if she was in my situation.
but she doesn't really want to be in my specifuc situation so what do i do?
i can't very well try to explain a feeling to her because that is impossible to do.
i wish we could all hang out together but everytime we do it is so awkward.
hmm.
graduation was a big step.
i dont know what to do with my life now.
i don't know where i want to go.