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I just want to thank my friends. You guys have done all you could to keep me sane. You have been with me through my good times and bad times. You all have been more than willing to drop everything and help me when I needed it. I appriciate it more than I can say. My problems are not any of your guy's fault, and anything that may happen you could not have prevented.
Alex, you have been one of my closest friends for a long time. Since highschool, when we would go to burger king and watch dbz episodes you had taped, and talk about girls, life in general. You were one of the best roommates I ever had, and I am glad to see you have direction in your life once again.
Adrian. You are crazy. And it makes me smile. You are one of the few people who can actually tolerate me when I am at my meanest, and you always try to cheer me up by pointing out how inconsequential events in life really are.
Sammy. You are the one who kept me sane in Sarasota. You showed me that anyone can make things better for themselves. You have looked out for me more than you needed to, and I will always be thankful for that.
James. You and I disagree on most things, but only because you and I think so much alike. You have always understood what I was trying to say, no matter how totally random and philisophical. I miss you being around.
Nic. You have been there for me the longest. Since middle school when we made that tape of nude scenes for movies. We have fought, but only the way brothers can. You and your family accepted me as one of you, and i cant express how much that meant to me.
Rebecca. My beks, the only girl on this list. You made work much better for me. You have tried your damndest to keep my head and spirits up, even when your were down. You have never let me down, and almost always found a way to make me feel better, if only briefly.
Im tired of being miserable. I am tired of being depressed. I am tired of being filled with rage and anger. I am tired of feeling like I can be thrown aside. Its been too long since I have actually felt good. I am tired of going to bed at night hoping I wont wake up. Or that the past few months have been a nightmare. I am tired of waiting for something I know wont happen. Im tired of being broken. I dont want to do this anymore. I am not strong enough to. No one is to blame for how I feel, only myself. I am weak, whiny, clingy, and that will never change. I always find a way to destroy those good things in my life, and I dont want to do that anymore.
Alex, you have been one of my closest friends for a long time. Since highschool, when we would go to burger king and watch dbz episodes you had taped, and talk about girls, life in general. You were one of the best roommates I ever had, and I am glad to see you have direction in your life once again.
Adrian. You are crazy. And it makes me smile. You are one of the few people who can actually tolerate me when I am at my meanest, and you always try to cheer me up by pointing out how inconsequential events in life really are.
Sammy. You are the one who kept me sane in Sarasota. You showed me that anyone can make things better for themselves. You have looked out for me more than you needed to, and I will always be thankful for that.
James. You and I disagree on most things, but only because you and I think so much alike. You have always understood what I was trying to say, no matter how totally random and philisophical. I miss you being around.
Nic. You have been there for me the longest. Since middle school when we made that tape of nude scenes for movies. We have fought, but only the way brothers can. You and your family accepted me as one of you, and i cant express how much that meant to me.
Rebecca. My beks, the only girl on this list. You made work much better for me. You have tried your damndest to keep my head and spirits up, even when your were down. You have never let me down, and almost always found a way to make me feel better, if only briefly.
Im tired of being miserable. I am tired of being depressed. I am tired of being filled with rage and anger. I am tired of feeling like I can be thrown aside. Its been too long since I have actually felt good. I am tired of going to bed at night hoping I wont wake up. Or that the past few months have been a nightmare. I am tired of waiting for something I know wont happen. Im tired of being broken. I dont want to do this anymore. I am not strong enough to. No one is to blame for how I feel, only myself. I am weak, whiny, clingy, and that will never change. I always find a way to destroy those good things in my life, and I dont want to do that anymore.