the cat's in the bag and the bag's in the river the cat's in the bag and the bag's in the river
Well 2008 went fast didn't it? All in all it's been a good year! Not only have I played in some of the biggest clubs in London, but I can also count my musical inspirations as personal friends. Sure there were minor romantic life hiccups along the way but all of that worked out really rather well :)
I can feel that blind self confidence coming back, the arrogant knowledge that I am awesome at what I do and the world is mine for the taking. It's like when I first moved to Guildford all over again, I ready and eager and I know everything is going to be good. I've spent too much time these past few months cotton wool wrapped in depression and self doubt. 2009 is the time to start doing the things I've always wanted.
Work still goes on, long days and even longer nights. To be honest I'm thankful the music industry pretty much grinds down to a halt during the second week of December. It means I can come back in January with new ears and refreshed vigor, and the great thing about modern life is that I can get all I need to do done over the phone every morning :)
I'll be playing out more and more next year, gonna introduce more of my own stuff into my sets, can't wait to see how that will pan out.
2 weeks ago I couldn't wait to leave London, not because London was getting to me, I've always been able to adapt easily to London life but the reason I came back was to spend time with Hannah. :)
To be honest there isn't a lot of things for me here now. All my old friends are drugged out messes pretty much (something I'm trying so hard not to be...and right now it's going ok) My parents are still here, but that may change in the nearish future, and once they're out of there I can't really see a reason to go back. It'll be nice to visit and all, I just feel all the sights are work with experiences both good and bad, and I've moved on from all of them.
I'm generally feeling better in myself, things are manageable and I'm focusing on staying positive, I don't know how long it will last but I don't care at all about the future, I'm living in the moment. The zombie dreams are back though which sucks a little but again it's manageable
So this break I've been pretty much spending every day with Hannah, it's been awesome; I feel like I'm 16 again, the both of us squeezing into a single bed and sneaking outside to smoke in case the parents spot us. It does mean that my plans of getting a lot of work done has gone out the window, which is ok because I didn't bring as much equipment down with me as I had wanted (just the laptop, soundcard and SSL plugins, no synth, controller or triggers)
So tomorrow is Christmas day, and as per the family tradition I won't be getting anything on the day, which is ok. It seems like this may be a year where we don't all resort to trying to kill each other when the other person isn't looking, which is refreshing. My parents are far too busy to shop and it means I can choose what I want later, right now I'm in a toss up between and new laptop (which I don't really need) and a drum machine (which I need a bit more)
Out of interest anyone here have a TR-606? Or a Machinedrum? I know they're pretty different (and I could get about 5 606's for the price of 1 machinedrum) maybe I'll get a laptop and a 606...who knows.
Anyway a good Christmas to you all, I'm going to be in 'nam until the 3rd of Jan. My NYE plans are booked (staying in with Hannah, her brother and some of her friends) so I'll be off the radar 31-1st but apart from that I'm open to suggestions. Drop me a line for drinks and fun times :)
Edit:
Oh and before I forget I urge everyone to look and sign the petition to this:
http://www.zerodb.org/
This is Amnesty's campaign against the use of sound and music as psychological torture. As many of you know sound (and the psychology behind music) is one of my greatest passions and it scares me to think that it is used to terrorise and torture people (and not in a good way) I honestly can't think of a justifiable reason for it being allowed (I'm NOT accepting teh lulz as a valid reason)
Want to know what it's like? Turn off your lights at night, crank your speakers and then watch the into movie and you're close. Add some strobing lights, sounds of rabbits being slaughtered and Barney the dinosaur and you're there. Repeat for 20 hours straight.
Trent Reznor learned that his music was used in this way (Mr self destruct and march of the pigs) and is now considering legal action (I doubt he'd get them on using it as a weapon, but technically seeing as the people didn't buy the record they were being tortured with, that counts as an unorthorised play and a break of the copyright agreement made when whomever it was bought that record)
http://feeds.nin.com/nindotcomupdates for more info.
I can feel that blind self confidence coming back, the arrogant knowledge that I am awesome at what I do and the world is mine for the taking. It's like when I first moved to Guildford all over again, I ready and eager and I know everything is going to be good. I've spent too much time these past few months cotton wool wrapped in depression and self doubt. 2009 is the time to start doing the things I've always wanted.
Work still goes on, long days and even longer nights. To be honest I'm thankful the music industry pretty much grinds down to a halt during the second week of December. It means I can come back in January with new ears and refreshed vigor, and the great thing about modern life is that I can get all I need to do done over the phone every morning :)
I'll be playing out more and more next year, gonna introduce more of my own stuff into my sets, can't wait to see how that will pan out.
2 weeks ago I couldn't wait to leave London, not because London was getting to me, I've always been able to adapt easily to London life but the reason I came back was to spend time with Hannah. :)
To be honest there isn't a lot of things for me here now. All my old friends are drugged out messes pretty much (something I'm trying so hard not to be...and right now it's going ok) My parents are still here, but that may change in the nearish future, and once they're out of there I can't really see a reason to go back. It'll be nice to visit and all, I just feel all the sights are work with experiences both good and bad, and I've moved on from all of them.
I'm generally feeling better in myself, things are manageable and I'm focusing on staying positive, I don't know how long it will last but I don't care at all about the future, I'm living in the moment. The zombie dreams are back though which sucks a little but again it's manageable
So this break I've been pretty much spending every day with Hannah, it's been awesome; I feel like I'm 16 again, the both of us squeezing into a single bed and sneaking outside to smoke in case the parents spot us. It does mean that my plans of getting a lot of work done has gone out the window, which is ok because I didn't bring as much equipment down with me as I had wanted (just the laptop, soundcard and SSL plugins, no synth, controller or triggers)
So tomorrow is Christmas day, and as per the family tradition I won't be getting anything on the day, which is ok. It seems like this may be a year where we don't all resort to trying to kill each other when the other person isn't looking, which is refreshing. My parents are far too busy to shop and it means I can choose what I want later, right now I'm in a toss up between and new laptop (which I don't really need) and a drum machine (which I need a bit more)
Out of interest anyone here have a TR-606? Or a Machinedrum? I know they're pretty different (and I could get about 5 606's for the price of 1 machinedrum) maybe I'll get a laptop and a 606...who knows.
Anyway a good Christmas to you all, I'm going to be in 'nam until the 3rd of Jan. My NYE plans are booked (staying in with Hannah, her brother and some of her friends) so I'll be off the radar 31-1st but apart from that I'm open to suggestions. Drop me a line for drinks and fun times :)
Edit:
Oh and before I forget I urge everyone to look and sign the petition to this:
http://www.zerodb.org/
This is Amnesty's campaign against the use of sound and music as psychological torture. As many of you know sound (and the psychology behind music) is one of my greatest passions and it scares me to think that it is used to terrorise and torture people (and not in a good way) I honestly can't think of a justifiable reason for it being allowed (I'm NOT accepting teh lulz as a valid reason)
Want to know what it's like? Turn off your lights at night, crank your speakers and then watch the into movie and you're close. Add some strobing lights, sounds of rabbits being slaughtered and Barney the dinosaur and you're there. Repeat for 20 hours straight.
Trent Reznor learned that his music was used in this way (Mr self destruct and march of the pigs) and is now considering legal action (I doubt he'd get them on using it as a weapon, but technically seeing as the people didn't buy the record they were being tortured with, that counts as an unorthorised play and a break of the copyright agreement made when whomever it was bought that record)
http://feeds.nin.com/nindotcomupdates for more info.