quest
well...the time has come for me to move. i will be leaving on either friday or saturday. i still have quite mixed feelings to be honest. as the days etch closer i find that i am starting to miss everyone already, more and more... but i continue to search for the strength inside myself that will let me just "let go" and take control of my future.
it is difficult, moving, much more so than i remember. although, i have never lived out of state far away from family and friends ,and maybe this weighs on my emotions more than i thought previously.either way, i must grow-up and "take life by the horns" as they say, i know this...but damn its much harder than i thought.
it seems so easy, to just not go and continue to live the way that i do. i could wake up to bev's phonecalls every morning, with her yelling at me to get up and come over to eat food. hit up fredy to jam, and go to geoffs to get destroyed and all that. fuck man...this shit is just hitting me hard i guess.
but the next few days will be my time to pull myself together, and hopefully do this thing with confidence. this is my only chance to finally dedicate myself to music and do something in my life. i have to do this...
heavy shit mann
it is difficult, moving, much more so than i remember. although, i have never lived out of state far away from family and friends ,and maybe this weighs on my emotions more than i thought previously.either way, i must grow-up and "take life by the horns" as they say, i know this...but damn its much harder than i thought.
it seems so easy, to just not go and continue to live the way that i do. i could wake up to bev's phonecalls every morning, with her yelling at me to get up and come over to eat food. hit up fredy to jam, and go to geoffs to get destroyed and all that. fuck man...this shit is just hitting me hard i guess.
but the next few days will be my time to pull myself together, and hopefully do this thing with confidence. this is my only chance to finally dedicate myself to music and do something in my life. i have to do this...
heavy shit mann