Vanity.
I wish I were beautiful enough to be a model.
I don't know why, but I know if I could get a modeling contract, I'd feel good about myself.
It's ridiculous, I know I've been given the gift of brains, not beauty. Not that I'm hideous, but I'm nothing special.
I was just shopping for lingerie online, & the model was really hot & I actually thought, hey, my boobs are as big as hers. I look good without clothes. I could do that.
But I have even more stretchmarks then I did a month ago, because I've lost weight too quickly.
And my tits are waaay too big to be a model.
And I'm fucking 5'3.
Why do I even want something like this?
I don't know.
I guess I just want to be reassured that I'm attractive.
Even though I've been losing weight quickly, I don't feel attractive.
I feel gross.
It's probably because I haven't been sleeping barely at all.
I'm fucking exhausted.
I don't know why, but I know if I could get a modeling contract, I'd feel good about myself.
It's ridiculous, I know I've been given the gift of brains, not beauty. Not that I'm hideous, but I'm nothing special.
I was just shopping for lingerie online, & the model was really hot & I actually thought, hey, my boobs are as big as hers. I look good without clothes. I could do that.
But I have even more stretchmarks then I did a month ago, because I've lost weight too quickly.
And my tits are waaay too big to be a model.
And I'm fucking 5'3.
Why do I even want something like this?
I don't know.
I guess I just want to be reassured that I'm attractive.
Even though I've been losing weight quickly, I don't feel attractive.
I feel gross.
It's probably because I haven't been sleeping barely at all.
I'm fucking exhausted.