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... so, flist, what do you love? what amazes you? big or small, doesn't matter. just comment. let me know.
the more i think about it, the more i realize i really just love pretty much everyone ever.
like, there might be people i dislike, but i don't hate anyone, and i just am full of love, dude. for fans and nonfans and just. everybody. all the time. ♥ i like people, dude. these kids in bands who make music for us, everyone who listens to them, people who don't like them but like other bands, the producers and the A&R guys and the street teams and roadies and groupies; ad execs and marketing people, the graphics people and programmers and accountants and everyone in the industry and everyone in every industry, the people who make the world go 'round in their own little ways.
the people who can't help make the world go 'round but who are here to enjoy it anyway. anyone who's strayed, anyone who tries to help them. addicts and junkies and murderers, okay, i love them too. i am just full of love for the world (... and the plants and the animals and insects and birds and weather and -- \o/).
i'm not even gonna name names, because man, a love so big doesn't need to be tied down by that. ♥ fandom's totally a part of that, and there's people i'd go further for than others, but whatever. temporary frustrations and annoyances and missteps don't diminish it.
like. i even admit that i hold grudges, sometimes, that i'm not a perfect person and can't quite bring myself to love everyone for always. but just because someone annoys me, just because i don't like them, that doesn't mean i legitimately wish them ill. there's people i think are annoying, but i don't think they've got any less right to exist than i do. they've got just as much of a right to be happy, to live the life they want, as i do.
of course it's better if the life they choose doesn't hurt anyone else, but we all hurt others. that's human nature. it's how much that matters. it's whether we choose to. it's whether it's a choice, if you're actively thinking, "i want to hurt this person and this is how i'll do it" or if it's just accidental. (those accidental hurts can leave the deepest wounds, but they're the ones that most need forgiving.)
... and in the long run, it's about forgiveness, isn't it? i've read some nonsense about how that's one of those virtues that christians have over other religions and over atheists, which is just, okay, what the fuck fringe view. i don't think you need to necessarily believe god wants you to forgive or whatever.
i just think that, you know. all people have their issues. everyone has their problems and there is no such thing as a perfect person. some people may cause a lot of hurt. they may do it on purpose. but if they think that's right, that's their belief. people are allowed to think whatever they want. who are we to say they're wrong? there's no knowing that for sure.
i believe what i believe. i don't know that it's true. i don't know who's right or wrong, and i've realized -- with a lot of thinking, a lot of discussion -- that that's not what matters. i'll live life the way i think is best; i'll try to keep as positive about it as i can.
my personal standards apply to me. i don't hold anyone else to them. morals are so incredibly, absurdly subjective, in the long run, that there's no way i can really hold everyone else everywhere ever to my beliefs. there's mitigating circumstances, there's just so many factors. so. some people, i prefer spending time with more than others. i enjoy some peoples' words more than others'. i've definitely got my preferences, and that's okay! i am allowed to like what i like!
i know i'm not everyone's cuppa. not everyone is mine. that doesn't matter. it's okay. people i don't actively like, i can just ignore or avoid. i can just leave them in peace. hopefully people who don't like me can just do the same, but whatever.
i forgive.
i love. ♥
... and guys, i'm a fucking teenager, let me have my moments of introspective existential bullshit. i'm still working through all this. i didn't let myself for so long. i stayed shut down and kept things buried deep for so many fucking years, and i am finally getting around to this, and it's. it's really nice. okay? okay. i am still so very, very young.
i've spent so many years being so messed up. something finally kicked me into this. and i'm glad it did, in the long run. it wasn't something pleasant, but what's come out of it has been good, so.
(i have spent years getting told how cruel i am. how i am really kind of a terrible person. and the realization that no, actually, i'm not so much -- that's fucking amazing too. i was getting told those things and having them glamorized at the same time and that's, for me, that's not very healthy. at all. i didn't even realize what it was. but. still, learning that i'm not is a slow process. i'm still not always wholly certain it's true.)
... also i think the world and the universe and everything in it is just SO COOL. oh my god. you guys. so many amazing, amazing things in this universe. stars upon stars upon stars, so many of them, and even more planets, and the countless lives on this planet (and who even knows how many other potentials out there, there is no knowing now!) and. the vastness of space and the minute particles that make up everything. that light and sound are waves. the blue blue sky and the ocean. night and day and the tides, birds and bats, fishes and cats and dogs and rats and frogs and. there is so much life, so many wonders JUST HERE ON EARTH, guys. THINK ABOUT IT.
i mean, even if you have a shitty day sometime, there are still ALL THESE INCREDIBLE THINGS ALL AROUND US, and that is pretty fucking cool. just. that there are such minutiae, things on scales almost unimaginably small, and then all this vastness, things that are just near-unimaginably huge, these two concepts that -- we don't even know how they work together. the quest for knowledge, for that knowledge, for the workings of the universe. the. just. everything. you guys. YOU GUYS.
EVERYTHING.
SO FUCKING COOL.
song of the night is totally yeti's never lose your sense of wonder, hahaha.
sorry for the poor grammar, i wasn't planning on that going on as long as it did
the more i think about it, the more i realize i really just love pretty much everyone ever.
like, there might be people i dislike, but i don't hate anyone, and i just am full of love, dude. for fans and nonfans and just. everybody. all the time. ♥ i like people, dude. these kids in bands who make music for us, everyone who listens to them, people who don't like them but like other bands, the producers and the A&R guys and the street teams and roadies and groupies; ad execs and marketing people, the graphics people and programmers and accountants and everyone in the industry and everyone in every industry, the people who make the world go 'round in their own little ways.
the people who can't help make the world go 'round but who are here to enjoy it anyway. anyone who's strayed, anyone who tries to help them. addicts and junkies and murderers, okay, i love them too. i am just full of love for the world (... and the plants and the animals and insects and birds and weather and -- \o/).
i'm not even gonna name names, because man, a love so big doesn't need to be tied down by that. ♥ fandom's totally a part of that, and there's people i'd go further for than others, but whatever. temporary frustrations and annoyances and missteps don't diminish it.
like. i even admit that i hold grudges, sometimes, that i'm not a perfect person and can't quite bring myself to love everyone for always. but just because someone annoys me, just because i don't like them, that doesn't mean i legitimately wish them ill. there's people i think are annoying, but i don't think they've got any less right to exist than i do. they've got just as much of a right to be happy, to live the life they want, as i do.
of course it's better if the life they choose doesn't hurt anyone else, but we all hurt others. that's human nature. it's how much that matters. it's whether we choose to. it's whether it's a choice, if you're actively thinking, "i want to hurt this person and this is how i'll do it" or if it's just accidental. (those accidental hurts can leave the deepest wounds, but they're the ones that most need forgiving.)
... and in the long run, it's about forgiveness, isn't it? i've read some nonsense about how that's one of those virtues that christians have over other religions and over atheists, which is just, okay, what the fuck fringe view. i don't think you need to necessarily believe god wants you to forgive or whatever.
i just think that, you know. all people have their issues. everyone has their problems and there is no such thing as a perfect person. some people may cause a lot of hurt. they may do it on purpose. but if they think that's right, that's their belief. people are allowed to think whatever they want. who are we to say they're wrong? there's no knowing that for sure.
i believe what i believe. i don't know that it's true. i don't know who's right or wrong, and i've realized -- with a lot of thinking, a lot of discussion -- that that's not what matters. i'll live life the way i think is best; i'll try to keep as positive about it as i can.
my personal standards apply to me. i don't hold anyone else to them. morals are so incredibly, absurdly subjective, in the long run, that there's no way i can really hold everyone else everywhere ever to my beliefs. there's mitigating circumstances, there's just so many factors. so. some people, i prefer spending time with more than others. i enjoy some peoples' words more than others'. i've definitely got my preferences, and that's okay! i am allowed to like what i like!
i know i'm not everyone's cuppa. not everyone is mine. that doesn't matter. it's okay. people i don't actively like, i can just ignore or avoid. i can just leave them in peace. hopefully people who don't like me can just do the same, but whatever.
i forgive.
i love. ♥
... and guys, i'm a fucking teenager, let me have my moments of introspective existential bullshit. i'm still working through all this. i didn't let myself for so long. i stayed shut down and kept things buried deep for so many fucking years, and i am finally getting around to this, and it's. it's really nice. okay? okay. i am still so very, very young.
i've spent so many years being so messed up. something finally kicked me into this. and i'm glad it did, in the long run. it wasn't something pleasant, but what's come out of it has been good, so.
(i have spent years getting told how cruel i am. how i am really kind of a terrible person. and the realization that no, actually, i'm not so much -- that's fucking amazing too. i was getting told those things and having them glamorized at the same time and that's, for me, that's not very healthy. at all. i didn't even realize what it was. but. still, learning that i'm not is a slow process. i'm still not always wholly certain it's true.)
... also i think the world and the universe and everything in it is just SO COOL. oh my god. you guys. so many amazing, amazing things in this universe. stars upon stars upon stars, so many of them, and even more planets, and the countless lives on this planet (and who even knows how many other potentials out there, there is no knowing now!) and. the vastness of space and the minute particles that make up everything. that light and sound are waves. the blue blue sky and the ocean. night and day and the tides, birds and bats, fishes and cats and dogs and rats and frogs and. there is so much life, so many wonders JUST HERE ON EARTH, guys. THINK ABOUT IT.
i mean, even if you have a shitty day sometime, there are still ALL THESE INCREDIBLE THINGS ALL AROUND US, and that is pretty fucking cool. just. that there are such minutiae, things on scales almost unimaginably small, and then all this vastness, things that are just near-unimaginably huge, these two concepts that -- we don't even know how they work together. the quest for knowledge, for that knowledge, for the workings of the universe. the. just. everything. you guys. YOU GUYS.
EVERYTHING.
SO FUCKING COOL.
song of the night is totally yeti's never lose your sense of wonder, hahaha.
sorry for the poor grammar, i wasn't planning on that going on as long as it did