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i guess im coming back to this shit. hahaha. i miss writing things down. I went though all my old entries today in class. and learned a few dates of what went wrong in my life. I feel so stupid for some mistakes. But i dont think that i could take anything done by or to me back.. because they have made me who i am today. Which is awesome. and im happy with where i am kind of. I guess its safe to say im happy with my self. FOR once haha
Basicalllly boys are confusing.
I really like matthew. but then jeff is like all up on my balls all the time. I mean seriously i met him like what 4 days ago. and oh yeah date tonight with him. oh how interesting that will be. geeeze. i feeel like shit though cuz i dont exactly like him. i just cant hurt him cuz it will burn the bridge i have to kayaking and kayaks and stuff. argh. im all depressed. He is really sweet and shit but i cant help the fact i really like matt. and i feel really bad for even saying yes to this date. like... wow. maybe it will be all bad ass and he will be all cool. Im gonna try and make the best of it. be outgoing and....i dono...blahh..
anyway.. then there is this guy here. which is nice. cuz we talked about dhit and figured we are just here to fuck around. no strings attached hahahaha FWB.? blahhh..
ohhhh yay weaverrr bought me a dinosaur from buildabear.. im SO excited. his name is Herbert......
yes herbert the pervert.