Grr....
Ok, as some of you may know my day started out pretty good I was very hyper but when I got home it just got so... Argh! lol.
K, well I just realized what a terrible life I have. I was talking/fighting/arguing with my sister about my "bad attitude" and then I suddenly just started crying about how no one gets me and how no one understands me and how my mom doesn't trust me.
And that how hard my life is and how annoying that everyone(not everyone, obviously) goes like "Oh Pia! She's so smart!" or "Wow! She has a PERFECT life" And then I just feel so frustrated because I don't even think I'm close to that! MAybe it's just some self-hate thing but I don't know...
And whenever I get an award or good grades I feel like it's not enough because my mom's so busy with her boyfriend that she won't even pay one second of attention to me and it's like no matter how hard I try she just tunes me AND my brother out. And while I was discussing some things with my sister she said that my mom was like that to her and she'll never change.
All the time I just want attention and it's like whenever I DO get attention I feel like I don't deserve it and everyone thinks I'm such a smartass because I'm like that. Oh and today someone said I was like thier own little advice columnist and inside I was like "WTF?" because how can I give good advice if I can't even make MY OWN life better?! Hah, you're probably all like "Huh? This isn't the Pia I know". Well then get to know me, I'm not all sunshine and smiles and my life isn't perfect.
::sigh::
K, I'm done.
K, well I just realized what a terrible life I have. I was talking/fighting/arguing with my sister about my "bad attitude" and then I suddenly just started crying about how no one gets me and how no one understands me and how my mom doesn't trust me.
And that how hard my life is and how annoying that everyone(not everyone, obviously) goes like "Oh Pia! She's so smart!" or "Wow! She has a PERFECT life" And then I just feel so frustrated because I don't even think I'm close to that! MAybe it's just some self-hate thing but I don't know...
And whenever I get an award or good grades I feel like it's not enough because my mom's so busy with her boyfriend that she won't even pay one second of attention to me and it's like no matter how hard I try she just tunes me AND my brother out. And while I was discussing some things with my sister she said that my mom was like that to her and she'll never change.
All the time I just want attention and it's like whenever I DO get attention I feel like I don't deserve it and everyone thinks I'm such a smartass because I'm like that. Oh and today someone said I was like thier own little advice columnist and inside I was like "WTF?" because how can I give good advice if I can't even make MY OWN life better?! Hah, you're probably all like "Huh? This isn't the Pia I know". Well then get to know me, I'm not all sunshine and smiles and my life isn't perfect.
::sigh::
K, I'm done.