At this particular time in my life...
I just got home from the studio. On the way home, I heard "Pull Me Under" by Dream Theater. I probably should have changed the station because of the whirlwind of emotion that was brought about because of it. "Pull Me Under" was a song in Guitar Hero World Tour, which is a game that Brad and I spent a great deal of time playing. It was one of his favorite songs.
I don't miss Brad at all. I don't miss the mindfuck our relationship had become before we broke up, and I don't miss the pathetic excuse for a friendship we tried to maintain AFTER we broke up. I don't miss any of it.
HOWEVER... What I DO miss is that particular aspect of that particular time in my life. Things as a whole were pretty lame - I was in school, living with a roommate that had a shitty girlfriend - but I was comforted by the fact that I had him in my life. I used to get mad at him for being better at Guitar Hero than me. Strangely enough, it's kind of a fond memory now, because even when we fought, I was reassured by how very much in love with him I was. I truly felt at the time that he was it for me.
Obviously, I know now that is not the case, and at THIS particular time in my life, I am happy with that. Really... I just miss the good times. The fun times. The Guitar Hero times.
I don't miss Brad at all. I don't miss the mindfuck our relationship had become before we broke up, and I don't miss the pathetic excuse for a friendship we tried to maintain AFTER we broke up. I don't miss any of it.
HOWEVER... What I DO miss is that particular aspect of that particular time in my life. Things as a whole were pretty lame - I was in school, living with a roommate that had a shitty girlfriend - but I was comforted by the fact that I had him in my life. I used to get mad at him for being better at Guitar Hero than me. Strangely enough, it's kind of a fond memory now, because even when we fought, I was reassured by how very much in love with him I was. I truly felt at the time that he was it for me.
Obviously, I know now that is not the case, and at THIS particular time in my life, I am happy with that. Really... I just miss the good times. The fun times. The Guitar Hero times.