i feel obligated to write something
1. i spent a few weeks writing something in my journal that i planned to post here as my definivite post highschool pre college statement. then it got fucked. it was destined to be that way because it was something i hadn't written about before. i try to write my ideas all the time and unless i get them out at once i start thinking about something else and can't write about it again.
2. with one exception. there are those entries about that one thing. those stay the same and can always be written.
3. people keep asking me how it feels to be leaving for college. they think i'm thinking things like this: the previous 19 years of my life have been leading up to this, they had no other choice but to lead up to it. regardless of how romantically i look at it the decisions i make in the next few years will determine to some extent, large or small, how my life goes after this point. according to everyone that has ever gone to college, ever, in the history of time, everyone, "those are the best four years of your life." apparently some of my most importantly relationships will be won and lost. i'll learn to live with a completely different set of people, sure some still from valpo, but also from chicago, indianapolis, florida, mexico, argentina, germany, and south korea. or so i hear. so how does it feel to be leaving for college? i'm actually feeling more like this: it feels like i'm leaving for high school. it feels like i'll be waking up in two days (6:15) taking a shower (6:21) staring at the floor of the shower (6:22-6:43) waking up again and getting out of the shower and getting dressed (6:44) staring at the carpet of my room (6:49) petting my dog (6:57) getting into my car (7:01) and going to school. that's what it feels like. the only difference is that i won't be picking kevin up and he won't be picking me up. but he's still a squishmitten.
4. right now, i really don't want any advice from anyone who is not going to be a freshman in college. i don't even want advice from most people that are going to be starting college. i really don't want advice from most people. but have it ready in case i come asking.
5. i hope my bed is comfortable.
6. i hope i get the food network in bloomington.
7. i hope there is a kitchen nearby.
8. where are you?
9. the square root of 9 is 3. i think i'm ready.
2. with one exception. there are those entries about that one thing. those stay the same and can always be written.
3. people keep asking me how it feels to be leaving for college. they think i'm thinking things like this: the previous 19 years of my life have been leading up to this, they had no other choice but to lead up to it. regardless of how romantically i look at it the decisions i make in the next few years will determine to some extent, large or small, how my life goes after this point. according to everyone that has ever gone to college, ever, in the history of time, everyone, "those are the best four years of your life." apparently some of my most importantly relationships will be won and lost. i'll learn to live with a completely different set of people, sure some still from valpo, but also from chicago, indianapolis, florida, mexico, argentina, germany, and south korea. or so i hear. so how does it feel to be leaving for college? i'm actually feeling more like this: it feels like i'm leaving for high school. it feels like i'll be waking up in two days (6:15) taking a shower (6:21) staring at the floor of the shower (6:22-6:43) waking up again and getting out of the shower and getting dressed (6:44) staring at the carpet of my room (6:49) petting my dog (6:57) getting into my car (7:01) and going to school. that's what it feels like. the only difference is that i won't be picking kevin up and he won't be picking me up. but he's still a squishmitten.
4. right now, i really don't want any advice from anyone who is not going to be a freshman in college. i don't even want advice from most people that are going to be starting college. i really don't want advice from most people. but have it ready in case i come asking.
5. i hope my bed is comfortable.
6. i hope i get the food network in bloomington.
7. i hope there is a kitchen nearby.
8. where are you?
9. the square root of 9 is 3. i think i'm ready.