hell week
this has been the peak of stress for me. last week was awful. this week, i acutally have some resolution. in the form of i had 3 papers and a portfolio turned in today. i got it all done last night around midnight.. so i even got a full 5 hours of sleep. sheesh. but i did get to take an hour nap today so i guess i really cant complain. i hafto write a paper tonight thats due tomorrow. its a theory peaper analyzing the nursing theory of betty neuman. i have all the articles i need to reference.. its just a metter of DOING it. i figure if i get into by 7.. i should be golden. plus- no 5:50 wake up time tomorrow. i get to wake up at like 9... woo hoo!!
tomorrow night i am going to spiral with mara and i think my roommate nick will be attending too. mara has graciously offered to be a dd, get me in for free, and possibly get me some free drinks t hroughout the night. it feels so good to think about being out. and having fun. and perhaps getting a little tipsy (aka- so much so.. that i cant remember the last 2 weeks).
i know all i talk about is school.. but thats kinda all i have going right now. other things are not so good as of lately. my mental health is exceedingly compromised.
today at the hospital i had a patient who was 85 and pretty confused. he was SOO hard of hearing and very much in pain. so needless to say, it was a challening morning. they ended up taking him around 11 for a cat scan since they thought he had a pulmonary embolism.. aka- something you dont want to have. it explained the confusion though. poor guy. his wife came in. she was adorable. she had a bunny rabbit shirt on. they have been married for 66 years. i thought that was something really special. they were precious.
i havent seen shaina in like a week. extensive paper writing on both our sides along with some issues regarding my current state have not been very good grounds for a very good relationship. so... thats happening. and im just kinda trucking through the stuff i gotta do.
nick and i went to lunch together yesterday. it was realyl nice to spend time with him. then i invited him to a mismatch party... so he dressed up last night in the most mismatched outfit he could put on. it was amusing. i wish i could spend more time with him... like during that time between like 12 and 3 where if youre awake and bored,.... amusing things happen. except.. i hafto sleep then cuz i wake up at dawn's buttcrack. humph. but i think he understands. i hope he does anyway.
so thats what's up.
somehing this week really made me realize how much im giving up to become a nurse. socail things, time, sleep, emotions, acting, singing, playing, among a longer list. i think it'll be worth it in the long run.. but until then... i feel like a piece of me is missing. and by a piece of me.. i mean.. most of me. i feel like a shell of a human.
i hafto think of things that dont require a lot of time.. but are able to fill me up. any ideas?
tomorrow night i am going to spiral with mara and i think my roommate nick will be attending too. mara has graciously offered to be a dd, get me in for free, and possibly get me some free drinks t hroughout the night. it feels so good to think about being out. and having fun. and perhaps getting a little tipsy (aka- so much so.. that i cant remember the last 2 weeks).
i know all i talk about is school.. but thats kinda all i have going right now. other things are not so good as of lately. my mental health is exceedingly compromised.
today at the hospital i had a patient who was 85 and pretty confused. he was SOO hard of hearing and very much in pain. so needless to say, it was a challening morning. they ended up taking him around 11 for a cat scan since they thought he had a pulmonary embolism.. aka- something you dont want to have. it explained the confusion though. poor guy. his wife came in. she was adorable. she had a bunny rabbit shirt on. they have been married for 66 years. i thought that was something really special. they were precious.
i havent seen shaina in like a week. extensive paper writing on both our sides along with some issues regarding my current state have not been very good grounds for a very good relationship. so... thats happening. and im just kinda trucking through the stuff i gotta do.
nick and i went to lunch together yesterday. it was realyl nice to spend time with him. then i invited him to a mismatch party... so he dressed up last night in the most mismatched outfit he could put on. it was amusing. i wish i could spend more time with him... like during that time between like 12 and 3 where if youre awake and bored,.... amusing things happen. except.. i hafto sleep then cuz i wake up at dawn's buttcrack. humph. but i think he understands. i hope he does anyway.
so thats what's up.
somehing this week really made me realize how much im giving up to become a nurse. socail things, time, sleep, emotions, acting, singing, playing, among a longer list. i think it'll be worth it in the long run.. but until then... i feel like a piece of me is missing. and by a piece of me.. i mean.. most of me. i feel like a shell of a human.
i hafto think of things that dont require a lot of time.. but are able to fill me up. any ideas?