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ok...so i haven't undated lately...it's been crazy here...
i've been working my ass off and the academic school year hasn't even started. Needless to say I am freaking scared out of my mind...what if i have taken on too much and am not strong enough to handle the stress, and then if i can't handle this stress how am i ever supposed to be able to handle the stresses of real life...jeeze i make myself stressed just thinking about it, it's no wonder i'm so uptight...ok breathe and everything will be fine. I know I over think and that I am strong enough to get through this..but there is still a part of me that wonders...what if I'm not...
my residents are all here for the most part, some new and some old. I love them all. I can already tell who is going to be active and who isn't, who is going to have problems and who will thrive. I am very lucky to have each of them apart of my floor. Our dynamic will be great this year, i can feel it.
sometimes the desk gets on my nerves....i can't do everything and i think people forget that sometimes......lol....
soooo ive been trying to talk to Tim....but he has been MIA...i'm wondering if this is his way of letting me know he's not interested in talking to me anymore....why not just tell me that be being awat is too hard and he can't do it..instead of taking the coward way out of not talking to me. I just want to be cared for...is that too much to ask? i'm starting to think the anwser is yes...i know i can be a bit much sometimes...but i think i deserve to be happy too...
ok time to go on another round...yeah that's right i'm on duty....i just keep reminding myself that after this year i will never do this again...so enjoy it.
peace out.
i've been working my ass off and the academic school year hasn't even started. Needless to say I am freaking scared out of my mind...what if i have taken on too much and am not strong enough to handle the stress, and then if i can't handle this stress how am i ever supposed to be able to handle the stresses of real life...jeeze i make myself stressed just thinking about it, it's no wonder i'm so uptight...ok breathe and everything will be fine. I know I over think and that I am strong enough to get through this..but there is still a part of me that wonders...what if I'm not...
my residents are all here for the most part, some new and some old. I love them all. I can already tell who is going to be active and who isn't, who is going to have problems and who will thrive. I am very lucky to have each of them apart of my floor. Our dynamic will be great this year, i can feel it.
sometimes the desk gets on my nerves....i can't do everything and i think people forget that sometimes......lol....
soooo ive been trying to talk to Tim....but he has been MIA...i'm wondering if this is his way of letting me know he's not interested in talking to me anymore....why not just tell me that be being awat is too hard and he can't do it..instead of taking the coward way out of not talking to me. I just want to be cared for...is that too much to ask? i'm starting to think the anwser is yes...i know i can be a bit much sometimes...but i think i deserve to be happy too...
ok time to go on another round...yeah that's right i'm on duty....i just keep reminding myself that after this year i will never do this again...so enjoy it.
peace out.