Ever Feel This Way?
Anyone out there ever feel like dying? For some reason, I'm feeling really depressed right now. I think it's because of all the crap that's going on in my life right now, mostly just petty worries, but they do tend to build up don't they?
Well, on top of the minor annoyances I mentioned in my last LJ, I also have a lot of money worries lately. You see, I was recently dropped from my dad's insurance when I turned 23. The thing is, I was not informed of them dropping me and when I recently had a doctor's appointment, I discovered after the fact that I didn't have insurance. So now I signed for some Blue Cross Blue Shield insurance for $138/mo. which is always good because that will just replace my rent money every month once I move out of the apartment and will only serve to keep me from affording to move out on my own again soon. This plan will go into affect in September which, coincidentally, is also the final month I pay rent, which means I have insurance AND rent to pay that month, not to mention my phone bill. Did I mention that right now, I only have about $100 to last me a week and a half and that's not counting my phone bill for THIS month!! Oh yeah, and me & Candice have planned a vacation to Chattanooga on August 19-21 and the only money I will have to go on will be my next paycheck which will more than likely only be about $330. So at least half of that paycheck will be going to the pre-planned vacation.
While I'm not so much bothered by Jason being here anymore, I do kind of feel like no one really wants me around. I mean, Roy is, for all intents and purposes, kicking us out of the apartment and Chris wants to room with Joe. Chris did say that I was also invited into any future apartment that he and Joe may room in and that's good but for some reason, I still feel like I'm not really wanted. Maybe it's just my current funk I'm in talking or maybe it's just my small frustrations about living in this dirty, non-air conditioned apartment talking, who knows?
Geez, I guess I'm just going through one of those times where I feel like no one cares about me. Sorry for those who have heard me say this before...deep down I know my friends care about me, so why do I feel depressed? Your guess is as good as mine...
Excuse me while I lay on the floor of my room
Well, on top of the minor annoyances I mentioned in my last LJ, I also have a lot of money worries lately. You see, I was recently dropped from my dad's insurance when I turned 23. The thing is, I was not informed of them dropping me and when I recently had a doctor's appointment, I discovered after the fact that I didn't have insurance. So now I signed for some Blue Cross Blue Shield insurance for $138/mo. which is always good because that will just replace my rent money every month once I move out of the apartment and will only serve to keep me from affording to move out on my own again soon. This plan will go into affect in September which, coincidentally, is also the final month I pay rent, which means I have insurance AND rent to pay that month, not to mention my phone bill. Did I mention that right now, I only have about $100 to last me a week and a half and that's not counting my phone bill for THIS month!! Oh yeah, and me & Candice have planned a vacation to Chattanooga on August 19-21 and the only money I will have to go on will be my next paycheck which will more than likely only be about $330. So at least half of that paycheck will be going to the pre-planned vacation.
While I'm not so much bothered by Jason being here anymore, I do kind of feel like no one really wants me around. I mean, Roy is, for all intents and purposes, kicking us out of the apartment and Chris wants to room with Joe. Chris did say that I was also invited into any future apartment that he and Joe may room in and that's good but for some reason, I still feel like I'm not really wanted. Maybe it's just my current funk I'm in talking or maybe it's just my small frustrations about living in this dirty, non-air conditioned apartment talking, who knows?
Geez, I guess I'm just going through one of those times where I feel like no one cares about me. Sorry for those who have heard me say this before...deep down I know my friends care about me, so why do I feel depressed? Your guess is as good as mine...
Excuse me while I lay on the floor of my room