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I'm writing this here because no one checks it anyway.
I'm seriously considering killing myself. For a whole lot of reasons. Chief among them being I really do feel like an absolute waste of a human being. I don't think I've ever done anything right. I just fuck up constantly and I'm tired of being a bad spot in other people's lives.
And aside from my immediate family, I don't think anyone would miss me. Scratch that: I KNOW no one would miss me. That's the most disheartening thing. No one cares. Even a little bit. My family does and maybe that should mean more to me, but it doesn't. I'd hate to make them hurt but when I think about it, with all the people I've ever known, if only three even sort of care once I'm gone then what's the fucking point.
If somehow you read this, congrats? I don't even know how you found it. I guess, whoever you are, I can just add you to the list of people who won't care when I'm gone.
I fucking hate this feeling.
I'm seriously considering killing myself. For a whole lot of reasons. Chief among them being I really do feel like an absolute waste of a human being. I don't think I've ever done anything right. I just fuck up constantly and I'm tired of being a bad spot in other people's lives.
And aside from my immediate family, I don't think anyone would miss me. Scratch that: I KNOW no one would miss me. That's the most disheartening thing. No one cares. Even a little bit. My family does and maybe that should mean more to me, but it doesn't. I'd hate to make them hurt but when I think about it, with all the people I've ever known, if only three even sort of care once I'm gone then what's the fucking point.
If somehow you read this, congrats? I don't even know how you found it. I guess, whoever you are, I can just add you to the list of people who won't care when I'm gone.
I fucking hate this feeling.