two months, baby... two months!
yes indeed, i kicked that habit of all habits two whole months ago.
believe me, i still struggle. every once in a while, i'll see someone smoking and think, "boy... they're lucky. i wish i could have a cigarette!"
sometimes i want to smoke just so i can have an excuse to take a break at work.
sometimes i just want to be smoking away when having a really good conversation, after a good meal, or when i'm so tired i can't keep my eyes open yet need to stay awake.
i definitely have moments where i know i'd smoke if i had a cigarette anywhere near me.
on the whole, however, i'm fine. i feel a lot better, don't get winded when lugging my daughter, an armful of groceries and our duffel bag full of laundry up the stairs, and have more generalized vim and vigor.
i am also spending money more frivolously than i should and i am all too aware of that being my present coping mechanism.
oh well, one thing at a time... one thing at a time.
believe me, i still struggle. every once in a while, i'll see someone smoking and think, "boy... they're lucky. i wish i could have a cigarette!"
sometimes i want to smoke just so i can have an excuse to take a break at work.
sometimes i just want to be smoking away when having a really good conversation, after a good meal, or when i'm so tired i can't keep my eyes open yet need to stay awake.
i definitely have moments where i know i'd smoke if i had a cigarette anywhere near me.
on the whole, however, i'm fine. i feel a lot better, don't get winded when lugging my daughter, an armful of groceries and our duffel bag full of laundry up the stairs, and have more generalized vim and vigor.
i am also spending money more frivolously than i should and i am all too aware of that being my present coping mechanism.
oh well, one thing at a time... one thing at a time.