justprompts: Ten Fantasies You Have
1.
She clicks the print button, and scans the readout.
Huntington’s. Negative.
She wakes up.
2.
Her mother’s still alive. She was never sick, and Huntington’s doesn’t exist. There’s no chorea, no dementia, no wasting away in a hospital bed until the monitor issues a long beep.
Everything is just a bad dream, she’s still happy, and her mom-God, she still called her Mommy when she died-loves her, doesn’t call her names, doesn’t yell for no reason.
She knows that it was just the Huntington’s talking. She knows.
It never changed anything anyways.
3.
She’s a princess.
She lives in a tower, the dragon’s name is Huntington, and there’s a lava-filled moat, in case she ever escapes.
But she has a gift, see. A glass slipper, or something like that. Prince Charming comes, and saves her. Everything’s not lost. Huntington dies, or returns to the light side, and she’s free to live her happily ever after.
It’s odd, because when she was seven, or eight, or maybe younger, she never had dreams like that.
4.
I love you, honey, her father says to her, and he’s looking right at her this time, instead of at some other thing behind her that only he can see.
Her dad was great. Really. It was just that-
Remy looked too much like Anne, and her father never quite forgave her for not being her mother.
5.
She still dreams about Spencer, sometimes.
If she actually had been dying-
Not that she wanted her to die, of course-
Maybe they would have had something. Maybe they could have more hot sex; maybe they would have dated. Maybe maybe maybe.
She hears herself say, “I’ll race you,” and then she wakes up, feeling guilty.
6.
House never has a bad leg.
Taub has a perfect marriage. He never cheated, because he loves his wife, more than anything.
Kutner’s parents never died. He still lives in India, running the store he told her about and fantasizing about America.
Amber never died in the bus crash. She and Wilson marry, and House is the best man.
Dr. Cuddy gets her baby. Dr. Cameron’s husband never died, never even had cancer.
They’re all successful diagnosticians, every patient they have gets saved, House never insults them, because they’re all perfect, and because House is nice-
Those are the fantasies that she gets a laugh out of.
7.
It’s Thanksgiving, or Christmas, or some holiday. She goes home, wherever home is, and there’s a big party and there’s a big table where everyone sits, and there’s turkey, there’s laughter, and everyone knows her and welcomes her and loves her-
It doesn’t have to be her family. It doesn’t have to be her friends, her coworkers. It doesn’t even have to be people she knows.
She just doesn’t want to be alone, anymore.
8.
She dreams, sometimes, about soul mates..
Kutner’s nice. Naïve and childish sometimes, yes, but still-nice.
Foreman is stable. He’s boring, actually. But she doesn’t really care. She’s had enough exciting for one lifetime and then the next.
Chase is hot, but she doesn’t know him that well, and she doesn’t really want to further her reputation as self-destructive bisexual in the hospital to self-destructive bisexual slut.
Or maybe she swings the other way.
Or maybe it’s House. It would make sense if they started sleeping together, in a really weird way. And if they have kids-
She always stops there. There will be no children. This will die with her.
It has to.
9.
She sets the ivermectin on the tray. "Two pills. You'll be all better."
Stark looks at her. "Can I have some water?"
She smiles. She gets the water. And she watches, carefully, as he swallows the pills.
He's discharged the next day.
10.
Jason points in the gun in her face.
She injects the ceftazidime.
And then, the wall explodes.
She dies.
Everything’s gone. There’s nothing left.
She wakes up.
She clicks the print button, and scans the readout.
Huntington’s. Negative.
She wakes up.
2.
Her mother’s still alive. She was never sick, and Huntington’s doesn’t exist. There’s no chorea, no dementia, no wasting away in a hospital bed until the monitor issues a long beep.
Everything is just a bad dream, she’s still happy, and her mom-God, she still called her Mommy when she died-loves her, doesn’t call her names, doesn’t yell for no reason.
She knows that it was just the Huntington’s talking. She knows.
It never changed anything anyways.
3.
She’s a princess.
She lives in a tower, the dragon’s name is Huntington, and there’s a lava-filled moat, in case she ever escapes.
But she has a gift, see. A glass slipper, or something like that. Prince Charming comes, and saves her. Everything’s not lost. Huntington dies, or returns to the light side, and she’s free to live her happily ever after.
It’s odd, because when she was seven, or eight, or maybe younger, she never had dreams like that.
4.
I love you, honey, her father says to her, and he’s looking right at her this time, instead of at some other thing behind her that only he can see.
Her dad was great. Really. It was just that-
Remy looked too much like Anne, and her father never quite forgave her for not being her mother.
5.
She still dreams about Spencer, sometimes.
If she actually had been dying-
Not that she wanted her to die, of course-
Maybe they would have had something. Maybe they could have more hot sex; maybe they would have dated. Maybe maybe maybe.
She hears herself say, “I’ll race you,” and then she wakes up, feeling guilty.
6.
House never has a bad leg.
Taub has a perfect marriage. He never cheated, because he loves his wife, more than anything.
Kutner’s parents never died. He still lives in India, running the store he told her about and fantasizing about America.
Amber never died in the bus crash. She and Wilson marry, and House is the best man.
Dr. Cuddy gets her baby. Dr. Cameron’s husband never died, never even had cancer.
They’re all successful diagnosticians, every patient they have gets saved, House never insults them, because they’re all perfect, and because House is nice-
Those are the fantasies that she gets a laugh out of.
7.
It’s Thanksgiving, or Christmas, or some holiday. She goes home, wherever home is, and there’s a big party and there’s a big table where everyone sits, and there’s turkey, there’s laughter, and everyone knows her and welcomes her and loves her-
It doesn’t have to be her family. It doesn’t have to be her friends, her coworkers. It doesn’t even have to be people she knows.
She just doesn’t want to be alone, anymore.
8.
She dreams, sometimes, about soul mates..
Kutner’s nice. Naïve and childish sometimes, yes, but still-nice.
Foreman is stable. He’s boring, actually. But she doesn’t really care. She’s had enough exciting for one lifetime and then the next.
Chase is hot, but she doesn’t know him that well, and she doesn’t really want to further her reputation as self-destructive bisexual in the hospital to self-destructive bisexual slut.
Or maybe she swings the other way.
Or maybe it’s House. It would make sense if they started sleeping together, in a really weird way. And if they have kids-
She always stops there. There will be no children. This will die with her.
It has to.
9.
She sets the ivermectin on the tray. "Two pills. You'll be all better."
Stark looks at her. "Can I have some water?"
She smiles. She gets the water. And she watches, carefully, as he swallows the pills.
He's discharged the next day.
10.
Jason points in the gun in her face.
She injects the ceftazidime.
And then, the wall explodes.
She dies.
Everything’s gone. There’s nothing left.
She wakes up.