Writer's Block: "Nothing Sharpens Sight Like Envy"
I admire how cold my best friend can be. I know it's not normally seen as a quality to be cold and distant towards others, but I wish I was more like that. That my actions be less dictated by my heart and feelings, and more thought upon with reason and logic. She doesn't get carried or swept away by her emotions. She controls them, which is a skill I wish I could master.
But the thing is, because of this, my best friend isn't synonym to my closest friend.
I admire how free my closest friend is. She doesn't conform for anything or anyone, whether they be her parents, her friends or society in general. She does what she loves and raises her nose on things that don't interest her. Just like that. She doesn't worry that her parents will be disappointed, or that her friends will take the mickey, or that society will roll their eyes and wonder what on Earth she was thinking when she wore that outfit. She acknowledges the weird looks she gets and smiles at them as though she understood exactly why they looked at her strangely. She wouldn't change for the world, and I envy her courage.
Of course, this whole idea makes me realize that if I am guilty of any sin, it is envy.
But the thing is, because of this, my best friend isn't synonym to my closest friend.
I admire how free my closest friend is. She doesn't conform for anything or anyone, whether they be her parents, her friends or society in general. She does what she loves and raises her nose on things that don't interest her. Just like that. She doesn't worry that her parents will be disappointed, or that her friends will take the mickey, or that society will roll their eyes and wonder what on Earth she was thinking when she wore that outfit. She acknowledges the weird looks she gets and smiles at them as though she understood exactly why they looked at her strangely. She wouldn't change for the world, and I envy her courage.
Of course, this whole idea makes me realize that if I am guilty of any sin, it is envy.