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[protect_subaru]

Subaru... It seems Witch-san lost her memory... and HE lied and told her that he was her lover...

Is it hypocritical of me to think he's sick like that when we are so much the same way?

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[insidethewater]

I'm not surprised he did that, really.

I don't think it's hypocritical. It... it's different when you're twin brothers. For one, there is no risk of pregnancy, for another... the bond is different. You and I were born together; we were always meant to be together.

What we have... is beautiful... right? Even if no one else seems to think so.

[protect_subaru]

...Aaah... I don't regret what we have...

It's just... Fuuma confronted me when I called HIM an... incestuous bastard...

And it's the same man who... who forced himself on YOU... so I was even angrier...

[insidethewater]

Shh... don't worry. Fuuma was surely just trying to upset you. Don't let him get to you.

But his poking of you bothers me. It... reminds me too much of...

[protect_subaru]

*Hugs onii-chan*

...What? What does it remind you of?

[insidethewater]

*hugs back*

It's stupid, but... it reminds me of the way children annoy the ones they love most. The way they poke and prod their first crushes.

[protect_subaru]

Oh... *nuzzles into it*

It shouldn't... *frown* I really doubt he cares for me that much, beyond something pretty to play with... and even then, he doesn't get that much out of it...

[insidethewater]

I... I disagree...

He just... can't seem to stay away from you, just like I could never stay away from you. And sometimes, when he looks at you, there is definite affection there...

[protect_subaru]

Onii-chan, please don't tell me that. I... I can't accept anyone caring for me... except you.

Besides... *sneers* I'm a vampire. He's a human. Humans always hate vampires. It's not possible for one to feel love for our kind.

[ooc: Forgive me, but I was watching Vampire Hunter D.]

[insidethewater]

I'm just telling you what I think is the truth. I'm sorry.

It's not right to generalize humans like that, Kamui. Some are different; some don't belive in boundries in love. Fuuma-chan seems to be very free-spirited, so I wouldn't be surprised if he was like that.

[protect_subaru]

Mmmm....

"Different"... Yeah... Sure... That's why we had to hop around so much- as soon as the humans realized we were vampires, we had to leave...

[insidethewater]

Not all humans are like that, Kamui. Fuuma-chan knows what you are, yet he treats you no different for it, does he?

I think we should give him another chance. Maybe if you stop reacting to his teasing, he'll mellow out, so to speak.

[protect_subaru]

He DOES. You didn't see him in the sand country- he didn't treat any of the other people like he acts towards me. Or you...

And it's not TEASING... he... he threatens me... and... *mumbles* he talked about you...

[insidethewater]

His attitude toward me is entirely because of my relationship with Seishirou-san. His attitude toward you... from what I saw, you were the only one he was truly interested in. He was so focused on you; payed attention to you.

He talks about me and threatens me because he knows that's what will get the strongest reaction out of you. Ignore him. I assure you that I will not allow him to do anything to harm me. Nor would Seishirou-san, actually...

[protect_subaru]

...Onii-chan, it almost sounds like you WANT me to like him. *squeeze*

I... can never have eyes for anyone... except you.

[insidethewater]

I would like you to at least have a good friend who cares for you.

That might change, Kamui. Most people have more than one love in their lifetimes.

[protect_subaru]

...I do... kind of... the other me certainly doesn't hold any disfavor against me.

That can't change, Subaru... You're more than just my beloved... you're... you're part of me... you're my brother...

That link... will never go away... And I don't think I could live if I knew that you felt any less for me than some form of love...