Mentos
i guess i never really realized that good blogs are really kind of windows into people's lives. i guess its kind of silly of me to just be realizing this, but it just kind of hit me tonight. i rather like to peek in on someone's life if just for an instant and see where they are and how they feel in that one moment that they put those words out there. i wish i was better at writing so that way people could see into MY life for that instant and perhaps benefit from where i stumbled or something like that.
as chaotic as things have been here i feel like things are just ever so slightly back on track. i still dont know where i'm going, but i also dont feel like the bottom as dropped out. i cant decide if im in it for the quick trip or the long haul right now. i dont like to wait or to keep people waiting. i need to walk my own path right now and hopefully i can do that in the situation i am in. i need some adventure. i need some freshness.
sorry i am not being super coherent right now.
its 0240 and i have not slept and i only got a few winks last night.
i really wish i could sleep right now that would be awesome.
i hate the way i feel about K and E. i want something that i cant quite put my finger on. i dont know what is going on.
as far as N goes i miss them and i hate to hurt their feelings. i want to make it better. also, for what its worth, sorry.
as far as PW goes, some shit went down and i was pretty fucking pissed. i have not felt that way in a long time and it was weird to feel like that again after so long. i dont know what needs to be done but as they would say at work "it matters how we play the game" and "time for change" if only it was as easy as filling out a RFC(Request For Change) form! that would be great if i could do that in life. ah, sigh im pretty lame.
anyways i hope i can sleep. here goes nothing!
as chaotic as things have been here i feel like things are just ever so slightly back on track. i still dont know where i'm going, but i also dont feel like the bottom as dropped out. i cant decide if im in it for the quick trip or the long haul right now. i dont like to wait or to keep people waiting. i need to walk my own path right now and hopefully i can do that in the situation i am in. i need some adventure. i need some freshness.
sorry i am not being super coherent right now.
its 0240 and i have not slept and i only got a few winks last night.
i really wish i could sleep right now that would be awesome.
i hate the way i feel about K and E. i want something that i cant quite put my finger on. i dont know what is going on.
as far as N goes i miss them and i hate to hurt their feelings. i want to make it better. also, for what its worth, sorry.
as far as PW goes, some shit went down and i was pretty fucking pissed. i have not felt that way in a long time and it was weird to feel like that again after so long. i dont know what needs to be done but as they would say at work "it matters how we play the game" and "time for change" if only it was as easy as filling out a RFC(Request For Change) form! that would be great if i could do that in life. ah, sigh im pretty lame.
anyways i hope i can sleep. here goes nothing!