[He has passed the point of panic when the video clicks on, has gone past the point of searching and hoping that the stupid device is lying, it has to beAnd he has hit the point of devastation
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[...And for someone who has been told he was not supposed to exist, that quite literally only hurts more. He can only wonder if he was ever meant to have happiness...because it seems so fleeting. So difficult to attain.]
[...Why not? It would be easier, he thinks, sometimes, especially in times like these when living just hurts so much, and it is so difficult for him--]
Why, then? What makes it worth it if it's so hard?
I can't answer that for you. You have to find that reason to live!
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What I can say though... is that you'll find it if you fight hard enough. Giving up's only going to make you more miserable, you know? Even if it seems kind of tempting right now!
[She's been there, after all. To finally have something and then to have it ripped away from you so soon, leaving you with nothing.]
[It is as if she's reading his mind. Because giving up does seem so much easier than continuing to fight. He has fought for everything he has, and he...has so little.]
Hmm... why was it worth it? Just because I was happy, I guess!
I mean, what you go through doesn't really matter in the end, does it? Because what you're feeling right now is what's important, so if you're happy, then all the bad things that have happened will seem like nothing. It's only if you let yourself fall and break along the way-you know, if you give up!-does everything seem meaningless, even if you find something worth living for.
[She's not entirely sure if she's still making sense or if any of this is getting through to him, but she'll try whatever she can to make this person happy.]
Hey... are you all right? Though I guess that's kind of a stupid question, huh...
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It hurts. His thoughts are too scattered to form a tart response.]
...I'm fine. It's...I'm fine.
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You know... it's okay to admit when you're not.
[And she knows she is the biggest hypocrite in the world for saying this, yes, but that's not what matters right now.]
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[He can't really see anything that does, at this point. What matters? He just...doesn't know anymore.]
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[Nobody cares. Nobody should care. He's on his own.]
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Why wouldn't it? Life's so much better when you're happy! Or at least not upset, anyway.
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It's not that easy, I don't think.
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... Life usually isn't. But... that's never a reason to give up.
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Why, then? What makes it worth it if it's so hard?
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I can't answer that for you. You have to find that reason to live!
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What I can say though... is that you'll find it if you fight hard enough. Giving up's only going to make you more miserable, you know? Even if it seems kind of tempting right now!
[She's been there, after all. To finally have something and then to have it ripped away from you so soon, leaving you with nothing.]
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Did you find a reason?
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Yup! I found it and then it left, but in the end, it came back. And you know what?
[Her smile brightens.]
Every moment I waited was worth it.
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It seems so far away. Too far for him to grasp.]
Why? Why was it worth it? Because you found it in the end?
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I mean, what you go through doesn't really matter in the end, does it? Because what you're feeling right now is what's important, so if you're happy, then all the bad things that have happened will seem like nothing. It's only if you let yourself fall and break along the way-you know, if you give up!-does everything seem meaningless, even if you find something worth living for.
[She's not entirely sure if she's still making sense or if any of this is getting through to him, but she'll try whatever she can to make this person happy.]
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