Well Baby, Im a put on a Show Kinda Girl...
FYI : Ive deleted the first statement that ive typed 5 times now. Im not sure what Im planning on saying...I need a moment....
Well, Lets start with the good!
1. The lives of my friends as a whole are greatly improving in one way or another.
2. Everyone is starting to be chill with eachother again
3. Senior Year is about 3/4 done
4. Ive been graciously accepted to every school I applied to
5. We are getting closer...
Now the unsure/bad
1. senior year is 3/4 done
2. I dont know where the hell im going
3. We are getting closer in the wrong sort of way
On top of that I work weekends, which is impacting my social life, which sucks a fat one
Im a hot mess of emotions at the moment
Im terrified to know about acceptances into music programs and scholarship offers
Im terrified to go, but equally or more terrified to stay
I dont know whats going on between us
I dont know whats up with myself
"Im out of the loop" lol
My grades are falling, and its too late to do shit about it
Im starting to have second choices about my current major of choice (my heart says yes, mind says no...this has gotten me into touble before)
Ive become terribly insensitive to those around me and have become gossipy...this is a problem with my morals
Following this up, Im having issues with myself
I could go on for days, but lets not worry our pretty little heads about this.... because I know that someway, somehow, its all going to be ok, and that unlike some of my friends, I realize that there is something bigger out there looking out for me, that has a plan, and that even though my problems seem overwhelming, ill make it, because I wouldent be given these problems If God knew I couldent handle them.....
Peace and Love