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i know i vowed to not use this thing again...
but sometimes i feel better just putting it all out there. and right now i'm in a really weird spot in my life. and, i really miss tyler. time can be a good thing, it can be a bad thing... and it can hurt a lot along the way. i just really need to stay positive and hope for the best. i've been trying to run away from all my problems for about a month now, and i finally realize you can't keep running.
there is absolutely no way to outrun your emotions. no matter how fucked up you can get yourself, no matter how ridiculous a lifestyle you choose to live.
the hurt is still there. and i often think of "miss you mornings"
i mean this was all MY decision, and i should be sticking by it until changes are made, like i said. but you know, its not that easy.
i can't believe things are going to backwards for me right now, but that's karma. i probably deserve each and every little shit thing that happens to me because i haven't been the best person lately. i know that now, and i'm going to change that.
i however will NEVER EVER forgive a certain someone who is now back in the city. god, i thought i'd never have to see them again. this person, if they only knew all the shit that they put me through... i would love to fucking spit in his face.
oh and i have a friend who is going back to rehab to try and kick it again. ain't life grand.
but sometimes i feel better just putting it all out there. and right now i'm in a really weird spot in my life. and, i really miss tyler. time can be a good thing, it can be a bad thing... and it can hurt a lot along the way. i just really need to stay positive and hope for the best. i've been trying to run away from all my problems for about a month now, and i finally realize you can't keep running.
there is absolutely no way to outrun your emotions. no matter how fucked up you can get yourself, no matter how ridiculous a lifestyle you choose to live.
the hurt is still there. and i often think of "miss you mornings"
i mean this was all MY decision, and i should be sticking by it until changes are made, like i said. but you know, its not that easy.
i can't believe things are going to backwards for me right now, but that's karma. i probably deserve each and every little shit thing that happens to me because i haven't been the best person lately. i know that now, and i'm going to change that.
i however will NEVER EVER forgive a certain someone who is now back in the city. god, i thought i'd never have to see them again. this person, if they only knew all the shit that they put me through... i would love to fucking spit in his face.
oh and i have a friend who is going back to rehab to try and kick it again. ain't life grand.