Im a physco that Runs 4 no reason
ya know wut...im pissed off...i eat right-2 meals with all the right shit-.....i get a good 8 hours of sleep on weekdays....i even did xc to build up my endurance...lol but naa that aint enough...this is the 2nd practice this year ive passed out at...i was doin fine ran my 4 400z in 69-71 and then it was on to the 300z...which i did with the younger group bc every1 else had their problems for w.e reason....i do the 1st 3 no prob...on the 4th one i felt like i hit a wall...my head got really dizzy & light-headed & a massive headache.....i knew wut was happening so b4 it got ne worse i figured id run this last one....i got burnt n ran like a 60 300...at this point it was really fuckin bad but i figured id just fight it off n finish it up...well yea..passed out...after a lil while i was feelin a liiiitle bit better so i tried to run another 300 which i prolly ran in like 70....idk wtf to do bout it but reilly told me that i should see a doctor n possibly get a blood test...ugh...now mannys back...coach will prolly have him run the 4X400 on friday...i dont understand how he can make an effort to get a kid that turned his back to his team....w.e....well now theres competition of 5 people for the 4X400 which is good and bad...itll make every1 train harder...but it could be bad b.c right now idk if ill be on it come feb.....ugh theres just so much shit involved in this...i jsut wanna run a race to see where im at...friday should be a really good test for me and although im gonna give it my all i dont think im going to do as well as many people are expecting me to so...it seems like every1 around me could just bullshit practice n still beat me...i really dont understand it but w.e...lol i love i devote myself to this shit n then other people have the balls to laugh at for w.e reason....ok im done venting....hahaha right now im at the point where ive gone crazy and im hgopein that 2morrow is a hard practice because if pass out or not im not stopping. lol god dammit im retarded