Weight loss and me.
So, still at 260. I have some ideas about what I'm doing wrong, but if you have any input, please feel free to reply or send me a message. I'm at my wick's end here, and I'm about to burn my fingers.
Idea #1 - This is the 'blame others instead of yourself' idea. I joked with Jennie (jenniferro ) that our friends weren't just enablers, they were diet assassins. I can spend all week being good, drinking water and sugar free teas, having small portions for lunch, keeping my calories way under the recommended 2500. Friday comes, and with it, Afters. After dodging sugary soda all night (and quite often failing), we suddenly have a sit down in a restaurant with food, drinks and sometimes dessert. I love afters, I love the talks that come up, I don't love sitting there with a tea or water and watching people consume their tasty meals. So, I get something. When I first started this, it was maybe some fries or something... if I'm feeling particularly weak, its eggs, sausage, hash browns and a milk shake. If I go to someone's place, I feel bad if I turn down everything they offer to snack on. God forbid I'm with skinny little Ryan, because watching the thin man eat and not eating is impossible. Fuck him, and his cream cheese milk shakes. fucker.
Idea #2 - This is the 'more discipline, less love' idea. jklumpp suggested that maybe I should change everything around, since my body had started hording. Frickin body and its frickin hording. So, I did. Increased some of my calorie intake, dropped out of some of my exercise. That worked for a day or two, then vaulted me toward 270 again. What I think I really need to do is just go hard core for a while. I enjoy being in shape, I liked walking up the mountain with Jennie and elf and not being all that out of breath. I love food, though. So, I can punish the crap out of myself and get to where I want to be, and be miserable whenever I'm around good food. Don't tell me about rewards if I go this route, because little rewards are the devil. So much is ruined by one soda or milkshake.
Idea #3 - This is the 'It will all work out in the end' idea. Maybe I'm just not giving it enough time? Hasn't it been months and months now? Some people have suggested that sooner or later, my body will figure out what I'm doing and I'll start to plumit. My exercise gets a little more extreme every time I do it, which is 3 times a week + walks around my work place and hikes from time to time. Sooner or later, muscle gain to fat loss breaks free of the scale, and maybe I'll start losing again? My middle still looks a lot the same to me, so I'm not sure this is the idea for me.
So, for now, I'm a 'fat camp' advocate at work, I'm staying on path during the week for my diet/exercise plans, and on the weekends someone else owns my fat ass. For now, I'm also 15 pounds away from goal weight, and I'm two months out from my goal date.
I have some other things to say, but I'm saving those for my satyrweb post. Those will be more of the diet and relationships sort, and I may very well babble.
Oh, and since I don't want to spend the game hoping for input, anyone who read my recent FOO mind tossing me a note about what they thought? Should I continue writing the min-chapters, or just give it up?
Paix, folks.
Idea #1 - This is the 'blame others instead of yourself' idea. I joked with Jennie (jenniferro ) that our friends weren't just enablers, they were diet assassins. I can spend all week being good, drinking water and sugar free teas, having small portions for lunch, keeping my calories way under the recommended 2500. Friday comes, and with it, Afters. After dodging sugary soda all night (and quite often failing), we suddenly have a sit down in a restaurant with food, drinks and sometimes dessert. I love afters, I love the talks that come up, I don't love sitting there with a tea or water and watching people consume their tasty meals. So, I get something. When I first started this, it was maybe some fries or something... if I'm feeling particularly weak, its eggs, sausage, hash browns and a milk shake. If I go to someone's place, I feel bad if I turn down everything they offer to snack on. God forbid I'm with skinny little Ryan, because watching the thin man eat and not eating is impossible. Fuck him, and his cream cheese milk shakes. fucker.
Idea #2 - This is the 'more discipline, less love' idea. jklumpp suggested that maybe I should change everything around, since my body had started hording. Frickin body and its frickin hording. So, I did. Increased some of my calorie intake, dropped out of some of my exercise. That worked for a day or two, then vaulted me toward 270 again. What I think I really need to do is just go hard core for a while. I enjoy being in shape, I liked walking up the mountain with Jennie and elf and not being all that out of breath. I love food, though. So, I can punish the crap out of myself and get to where I want to be, and be miserable whenever I'm around good food. Don't tell me about rewards if I go this route, because little rewards are the devil. So much is ruined by one soda or milkshake.
Idea #3 - This is the 'It will all work out in the end' idea. Maybe I'm just not giving it enough time? Hasn't it been months and months now? Some people have suggested that sooner or later, my body will figure out what I'm doing and I'll start to plumit. My exercise gets a little more extreme every time I do it, which is 3 times a week + walks around my work place and hikes from time to time. Sooner or later, muscle gain to fat loss breaks free of the scale, and maybe I'll start losing again? My middle still looks a lot the same to me, so I'm not sure this is the idea for me.
So, for now, I'm a 'fat camp' advocate at work, I'm staying on path during the week for my diet/exercise plans, and on the weekends someone else owns my fat ass. For now, I'm also 15 pounds away from goal weight, and I'm two months out from my goal date.
I have some other things to say, but I'm saving those for my satyrweb post. Those will be more of the diet and relationships sort, and I may very well babble.
Oh, and since I don't want to spend the game hoping for input, anyone who read my recent FOO mind tossing me a note about what they thought? Should I continue writing the min-chapters, or just give it up?
Paix, folks.