meeehhh
hmm so i wanted to *LJ!* cos i havent in ages and im up early for some reason. thats happening quite often these days, im a leeeetle bit concerned :/ also not eating which is V. WIERD because im usually all fatmuncherish n stuff. strange child. so last night i had a stonker of a headache n went to bed at like ten, lay there n spoke to the momma bear for a while n then nodded off, it was quite nice despite the banging noodle.
22 dais till america! which is totally awesome, but im really starting to worry about money ie i have none. its not as if i havent been saving cos ive put away every single wage and ema and my birthday money for like months and i havent been out except like, the gayclub nite and the only money ive spent apart from that is on like neccesary stuff for going away - bikinis n that. but i seem to have very little considering.
shite.
on top of it im hardly seeing crawford these days at all cos of exams and work and college and i know he's really stressing out over everything which totally is not like him, makes me worry and i feel all useless cos there's nothing i can do about it. i did a reiki treatment last time he was over and he fell asleep straight away, which is good. its still not brilliant tho. i got a bit upset last night but he called to say dont worry.
anyway finally got my chilis album thru so been listening to that a lot. and bill withers. *cough*. going to visit le auntie julie tonight and hopefully seeing elaine laters cos we havent got together since the fateful fight night.
NOW im fuckin hungry. am i? ach, funk.
thinking to have a small gathering a la peacock after zams are over - everyone free on the 1st? rsvp ;) xx
22 dais till america! which is totally awesome, but im really starting to worry about money ie i have none. its not as if i havent been saving cos ive put away every single wage and ema and my birthday money for like months and i havent been out except like, the gayclub nite and the only money ive spent apart from that is on like neccesary stuff for going away - bikinis n that. but i seem to have very little considering.
shite.
on top of it im hardly seeing crawford these days at all cos of exams and work and college and i know he's really stressing out over everything which totally is not like him, makes me worry and i feel all useless cos there's nothing i can do about it. i did a reiki treatment last time he was over and he fell asleep straight away, which is good. its still not brilliant tho. i got a bit upset last night but he called to say dont worry.
anyway finally got my chilis album thru so been listening to that a lot. and bill withers. *cough*. going to visit le auntie julie tonight and hopefully seeing elaine laters cos we havent got together since the fateful fight night.
NOW im fuckin hungry. am i? ach, funk.
thinking to have a small gathering a la peacock after zams are over - everyone free on the 1st? rsvp ;) xx