Wallflowering
Life in a nutshell.
Question:
I want you to reply (along with commentary about my post) with one word to fill this blank.
Life is __________ .
A lot of unnecessary feelings were analyzed and destoryed in my mind as I sat alone during Christmas.
No, I didn't get any presents. Didn't have a tree. No lights. Not even a Merry Christmas from my Dad until I forced myself to say something.
It made me turn into this acidic-rage bubbling recluse in my room and I couldn't help but wonder why I was stressing myself out over something that was out of my control. Why am I angry?
I found reasons, but they were excuses in sheep's wool. When I finally came across this epiphany, almost all of my anger, resentment, bitter feelings, hate, etc. was disarmed and I was awe-struck at how weightless I felt. I think I passed out on my bed, to be honest. ...Maybe that was because of my hypoglycemia, but it was still a different kind of experience.
In causation, I stopped being an asshole to people that I didn't need to be. It was considerably more stressful to hold grudges against them than to just be civil. I also made up with my friend, Misty, and was excited the new and enlightened personalities had to bring back to the table after being seperated for 5 months or so.
Also, my loan for school was approved. The percentage, mind you, sucks ass but it is all deferred until I'm through with college and I'll be more than willing to pay that bitch off first. I'll be so pleased with this semester is over, because next year will open up so many opportunities. I might even be moving to Florida to live with my mom for college. Who knows.
Tonight: I'm going to Little Rock to dance my face off at a gay bar/club thing with a group of my friends and I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.
Happy New Years, friends.
Question:
I want you to reply (along with commentary about my post) with one word to fill this blank.
Life is __________ .
A lot of unnecessary feelings were analyzed and destoryed in my mind as I sat alone during Christmas.
No, I didn't get any presents. Didn't have a tree. No lights. Not even a Merry Christmas from my Dad until I forced myself to say something.
It made me turn into this acidic-rage bubbling recluse in my room and I couldn't help but wonder why I was stressing myself out over something that was out of my control. Why am I angry?
I found reasons, but they were excuses in sheep's wool. When I finally came across this epiphany, almost all of my anger, resentment, bitter feelings, hate, etc. was disarmed and I was awe-struck at how weightless I felt. I think I passed out on my bed, to be honest. ...Maybe that was because of my hypoglycemia, but it was still a different kind of experience.
In causation, I stopped being an asshole to people that I didn't need to be. It was considerably more stressful to hold grudges against them than to just be civil. I also made up with my friend, Misty, and was excited the new and enlightened personalities had to bring back to the table after being seperated for 5 months or so.
Also, my loan for school was approved. The percentage, mind you, sucks ass but it is all deferred until I'm through with college and I'll be more than willing to pay that bitch off first. I'll be so pleased with this semester is over, because next year will open up so many opportunities. I might even be moving to Florida to live with my mom for college. Who knows.
Tonight: I'm going to Little Rock to dance my face off at a gay bar/club thing with a group of my friends and I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.
Happy New Years, friends.