The Great Decay
cursive:tempest:
Note2Self:
Been in a crappy mood for a few days. I think part of it is the slow down. I was doing all this stuff for the battle of the youtube nonstars and then the semi finals ended and there wasn't really much to do, no pressure. I could be getting started doing stuff for the finals. But I'm not 100% sure I'm even in them. Though I'm pretty sure I am.
So instead of doing stuff, I'm just being in a crap mood. Not that it's unwarrented. my life has not been an easy one these past few years.
I made this choice along time ago to be a creative person, and apparently in my case it also means I chose to live a life in which eating one day meant losing something else.
Seaweed:stale:
I have these problems I'm too embarrassed to tell people about. I never had this before. When I was 16 I could talk about anything, laugh it off, joke it away. Cause honestly back then it meant nothing. Money wasn't a live or die staple in my universe. Not that I took it for granted, but I never really knew.
broken bottles:suburban dreams:
I've actually had the thought that, if I could go back and give up elements of my creativity so that I could live a safer, more solid, comfortable life ... I just might.
Don't take this as depression. Not that I think anybody reads this anymore. I don't blame you, I was never writing for anybody else anyway.
Cursive:the great decay:week after week its sacrifice...
I think somewhere I set a goal to sell a novel and do a feature film by 35, and then promptly forgot that was ever a goal of mine... and now 35 is looming. I set a goal that I'd make something of myself in Hollywood within ten years and I'm 7.5 down.
My clocks are running out and I don't know what happens next
all of the years that waste away
Damn iTunes reading my mind, that shit really starts to piss me off sometimes.
decay
I was thinking about this earlier, I have 85 some videos on YouTube right now, and I can easily make the assumption they average to about 2 minutes (probably more) each.. which means there's nearly 3 hours of me on the internet. So in a way I have already put in the work to have made a feature film.
Is it possible to make a feature film with one actor? Maybe I'll try to do something longer than normal one of these days. A 20 minute short of me, my shtich. What the SamProof should could be if it was on network TV, or cable... or whatever... a 22 minute romp.
I don't think the people on YouTube have the attention span for it... but I think I need to do it for me.
Bad Religon:American Dream:
I think I might give up drinking soda.
At least one the weekends, at least when I'm paying for it.
I feel like I need to cut down on expenses again.
My job ends in about a month. Oh yea, the rumor is we're having a wrap party at the Mansion.
Maybe I'll just hide in the grotto and never leave.
The Weakerthans:hostile vespers:
Wish I had a camcorder.
Note2Self:
Been in a crappy mood for a few days. I think part of it is the slow down. I was doing all this stuff for the battle of the youtube nonstars and then the semi finals ended and there wasn't really much to do, no pressure. I could be getting started doing stuff for the finals. But I'm not 100% sure I'm even in them. Though I'm pretty sure I am.
So instead of doing stuff, I'm just being in a crap mood. Not that it's unwarrented. my life has not been an easy one these past few years.
I made this choice along time ago to be a creative person, and apparently in my case it also means I chose to live a life in which eating one day meant losing something else.
Seaweed:stale:
I have these problems I'm too embarrassed to tell people about. I never had this before. When I was 16 I could talk about anything, laugh it off, joke it away. Cause honestly back then it meant nothing. Money wasn't a live or die staple in my universe. Not that I took it for granted, but I never really knew.
broken bottles:suburban dreams:
I've actually had the thought that, if I could go back and give up elements of my creativity so that I could live a safer, more solid, comfortable life ... I just might.
Don't take this as depression. Not that I think anybody reads this anymore. I don't blame you, I was never writing for anybody else anyway.
Cursive:the great decay:week after week its sacrifice...
I think somewhere I set a goal to sell a novel and do a feature film by 35, and then promptly forgot that was ever a goal of mine... and now 35 is looming. I set a goal that I'd make something of myself in Hollywood within ten years and I'm 7.5 down.
My clocks are running out and I don't know what happens next
all of the years that waste away
Damn iTunes reading my mind, that shit really starts to piss me off sometimes.
decay
I was thinking about this earlier, I have 85 some videos on YouTube right now, and I can easily make the assumption they average to about 2 minutes (probably more) each.. which means there's nearly 3 hours of me on the internet. So in a way I have already put in the work to have made a feature film.
Is it possible to make a feature film with one actor? Maybe I'll try to do something longer than normal one of these days. A 20 minute short of me, my shtich. What the SamProof should could be if it was on network TV, or cable... or whatever... a 22 minute romp.
I don't think the people on YouTube have the attention span for it... but I think I need to do it for me.
Bad Religon:American Dream:
I think I might give up drinking soda.
At least one the weekends, at least when I'm paying for it.
I feel like I need to cut down on expenses again.
My job ends in about a month. Oh yea, the rumor is we're having a wrap party at the Mansion.
Maybe I'll just hide in the grotto and never leave.
The Weakerthans:hostile vespers:
Wish I had a camcorder.