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What am I DOING?? I feel horrid... I am really growing to love Hermione in the romantic way. I love so many things about her, about being with her. She's incredible, and just knowing that this love between us is growing and blossoming is fantastic. Every night with her is magic, every day we get to see each other is brilliant. Dinner in Paris with her... hearing her speak French was incredible and beautiful.
Then there's Ron. What am I doing?? He's my best mate, aside from her. Maybe I should break things off with her. I don't want to, but is it fair? They were broken up... I know, but is it fair to be doing this? I want to be with her. I really feel amazing knowing she loves me the way she does. But... I can handle being alone. I've been alone for so long, what does it matter? But Ron... he doesn't do so well alone. And at least when they were together, we could all just be around each other. I didn't care about them sneaking a kiss...
But... now I do. I don't want to give her up. Is this actually jealousy I'm starting to feel with her? I think it might be. When this last batch of roses arrived from Ron, I really felt...angry.
So... what do I do now? Let Ron be on his own, and not doing so well? Or break things off with Hermione and try to get them back together? And worse... how do I bring myself to do it when I'm really coming to love her far more than I expected to love anyone?