I can literally feel the tears welling up in my eyes right now.
This is so not me.
Okay, so I never really thought of myself as a nymphomaniac, but I'm definitely not a prude either. I Love Him. To Pieces. But he's driving me crazy with this shit. And I think I might be turning into a prude.
I've always believed in balance. Whenever I'm with a loud friend, I make myself into the quiet one. And vice versa. If someone's very happy, then I'm sure there must be someone equally as gloomy. It just makes sense. For every yin, there has to be a yang.
My boyfriend is a nympho. He wants to do it all the time. He's always talking about his sex drive and how I drive him crazy when I say no. He used to talk about how he would never sexually pressure anyone, but now he's joined the club of all of my past boyfriends. Part of the reason why they are my past boyfriends.
He even had the gall to call me and say he wasn't forcing me into anything, but at the same time he wouldn't take no for an answer. His sex drive is killing him and porno just doesn't do it anymore. Well, boo-fucking-hoo. I mean, it's not like I don't care, but... I'm really tired of all of this.
I can't make myself have sex when I don't want to. I refuse to do it because it's convenient and easy. If I don't want to do it, I won't. If I want to, then I will. It's that simple. And when I put it to him that way, he gets mad that it's always on my terms, that when he tries to seduce me, I don't fall for it.
I thought we were in love. When and why did sex become such a big issue? Like, seriously? Is he the only one in the world who has a sex drive this big? I highly doubt it.
And it's not like we haven't tried things. But I'm just not interested. In sex. In him, I really am. When he's not sex-crazy (which is rare these days), he's a really sweet, thoughtful, and caring person. On those occasions, I just want to hug him and snuggle with him, and kiss him from time to time, but I don't want sex.
My mind keeps wandering to taking a break, but I don't see it as helping much. He'd still have the same problem because he would never cheat, or even go off with someone else with my permission. It's such a lose-lose situation.
I don't know what to do anymore. It wasn't supposed to be this way.
I can literally feel the tears welling up in my eyes right now.
This is so not me.
Okay, so I never really thought of myself as a nymphomaniac, but I'm definitely not a prude either. I Love Him. To Pieces. But he's driving me crazy with this shit. And I think I might be turning into a prude.
I've always believed in balance. Whenever I'm with a loud friend, I make myself into the quiet one. And vice versa. If someone's very happy, then I'm sure there must be someone equally as gloomy. It just makes sense. For every yin, there has to be a yang.
My boyfriend is a nympho. He wants to do it all the time. He's always talking about his sex drive and how I drive him crazy when I say no. He used to talk about how he would never sexually pressure anyone, but now he's joined the club of all of my past boyfriends. Part of the reason why they are my past boyfriends.
He even had the gall to call me and say he wasn't forcing me into anything, but at the same time he wouldn't take no for an answer. His sex drive is killing him and porno just doesn't do it anymore. Well, boo-fucking-hoo. I mean, it's not like I don't care, but... I'm really tired of all of this.
I can't make myself have sex when I don't want to. I refuse to do it because it's convenient and easy. If I don't want to do it, I won't. If I want to, then I will. It's that simple. And when I put it to him that way, he gets mad that it's always on my terms, that when he tries to seduce me, I don't fall for it.
I thought we were in love. When and why did sex become such a big issue? Like, seriously? Is he the only one in the world who has a sex drive this big? I highly doubt it.
And it's not like we haven't tried things. But I'm just not interested. In sex. In him, I really am. When he's not sex-crazy (which is rare these days), he's a really sweet, thoughtful, and caring person. On those occasions, I just want to hug him and snuggle with him, and kiss him from time to time, but I don't want sex.
My mind keeps wandering to taking a break, but I don't see it as helping much. He'd still have the same problem because he would never cheat, or even go off with someone else with my permission. It's such a lose-lose situation.
I don't know what to do anymore. It wasn't supposed to be this way.
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